A Cost Of Suicide

"Ch 21 Reason to live"

As I started to regain consciousness, I heard Aezhar crying. Before I could wake up, he was saying:

"Don't leave me, please. I don't have any reason to live; you became my reason. I hated my life. The moment I was ready to end it, you came first, at the square and then the bakery store. I delayed the process; I thought I should get to know you before I die. I searched for you, and then we met again at the ball. I saw you; I observed you. You were fighting, and I thought the information I had about you was fake. How is she handling it so perfectly? I followed you, and you became my reason to live. Please... hic... sob... I don't believe the doctor. How can they say you only have seven days to live? Hic..."

Alara: "Ae... Aezhar..."

Aezhar: "You woke up."

Alara: "Yes."

Aezhar: "You should rest, please."

Alara: "I rested."

Aezhar: "Let me call a doctor first."

Alara: "Okay."

The doctor came and examined me.

Alara: "I want to know about my condition."

Aezhar: "It's fine, Alara. We will talk about it later."

Alara: "Please, I want to know. Doctor, tell me."

Doctor: "I'm afraid your condition is getting worse. We've diagnosed you with a rare condition which is also a curse. I’m sorry, but you don’t have much time left, miss. Probably seven days."

Aezhar: "Alara, he's not the best doctor. Let's visit the best doctor. I come from a mage background; I will find you a cure, okay?"

Alara: (I gathered all my courage and said) "Aezhar, Aezhar, please listen. I don’t want to spend the rest of my days as a patient or living in false hope. Let’s just live these seven days happily, please."

Aezhar: "Alara, do you want to live?"

Alara: "Oh, I forgot. I heard everything you say why do you want to die?"

Aezhar: "Expectation killed me many years ago. My soul was dead; the only thing left was my body. So, I decided to free myself. The crown prince position was too much. I didn’t know anything. I thought my only friend would understand, but he did not. He left me. I was alone with so many fake faces that killed me inside, day by day. Then you came. You became my reason to live. I will be left alone, please... hic... hic... sob... How do you expect me to live, Alara? Please don't leave me... I don’t want anything..."

Alara: "Aezhar, do you love me?"

Aezhar: "Hic... hic... Yes..."

Alara: "So promise me you will never commit suicide."

Aezhar: "Why are you doing this to me?"

Alara: "Promise me." (I thought to myself, because I don’t want you to pay the same price as me.)

Aezhar: "Yes, I will, but I will be dead."

Alara: "Life is a long journey. You never know what will happen. New flowers will bloom." (I thought to myself, my heart breaking.) "You will find a new reason to live. A new person will come into your life..."

Aezhar: "NO ONE WILL COME, I SWEAR. NO ONE. YOU WILL BE THE LAST PERSON."

Alara: "You have to move on, Aezhar. That’s how this world works. Please, don’t do this to yourself."

Aezhar: "I need to go somewhere. I will come back later today, and I want you to give me your answer. Do you want to live?"

He left after that.