Afraid

Belle

The next day, I started packing to move to Kingstown. I move in 2 weeks' time. I smiled and messaged Paige about it.

Paige messaged me back, saying that she was really nervous thinking about how I am going to cope in Kingston. But honestly, even though I am autistic, I still really want to move to Kingston.

But suddenly, I started getting certain worries, and I feel like it is driving me crazy. What if I am unable to cope in university? I feel like I really need everything to be perfect, and I do not want to do shit in my exams, essays, etc.

2 weeks later was the time Hanna and I were packing up the car to move for tomorrow. I feel like my mind was racing. But I should be able to cope, shouldn't I?

Paige came over as we were packing, and she seemed kind of calmer. It was almost as if she had accepted that I really needed to go to university.

When Paige went to the bathroom, I felt a moment of sadness, and Hana seemed to notice that I was feeling upset, and she asked me if I was okay. I said I was okay. And she asked me suddenly again if I am sure. And I said yes, I am okay. I remember Hanna saying how happy she was for me and that I am going to love university. And that university is a very fun time for people.