Afraid

Paige

I opened my phone as I noticed Belle had not replied to me about Mum dying.

But then suddenly I noticed that Belle had replied back.

"Sorry Paige....I'm really sorry that I have not replied back....I have not been feeling well recently. I had my first lecture class, and I had to leave because I saw something strange? I don't know what I saw...."

As Paige replied I knew there was something wrong with my brain and I was going crazy hearing all of this.

I wondered if the cancer that I used to have and am from remission from had spread to my brain. So, I decided to call some sort of psychiatric centre or hospital. I decided I would go to the emergency room but when I sat there I began to feel very silly and a sense of despair set in as I sat there.

I heard a whisper call out to me "diiiiieeee" and that made me want to escape the hospital so I left. When I went back to my car I screamed and had a massive breakdown in my car....I then went back in my car to go home.

My despair got worse when I got home, and I was feeling so frustrated and alone. So, I decided I would talk to some of my friends on the group chat that we were in. But then I started feeling even worse about how Alice had been talking about having brain cancer. I knew she would say something stupid in the group that we were in.

In the group I had tried writing down what was going on with me. But I did not get an instant reply. So I had to wait until a person replies to me.