Afraid

Paige

I stayed up all night worrying but tried to do some basic self-care as I knew I was having issues with my mental health. I knew self-care is good for mental health. Although I knew very deeply that I was not hallucinating any of this.

Eventually I got a reply from one of my friends asking if I was okay and if she can come over to visit me. This was from my friend Charlotte.

I texted her back saying that she can come over and when she came over, we sat on the dining table, and I started talking to her about what had happened. I told her about how my mum recently passed away and that at the funeral I saw bright flashes of colours that resemble a rainbow and strange stars, a voice that resembled a growling monster, a voice of someone who seemed to just be growling my name, my aunt smirking and putting up the middle finger, the nightmares I had of walking through the rain in the city and the experience I had where Belle had also seen some strange things happen.

Charlotte had told me that she thinks it is all in my mind and that everything is okay. And that maybe to get my mind off everything I can join an art group or another type of social group.

I started to feel then that everything is okayand that maybe it was all in my mind. We watched two episodes of a random tvshows that Charlotte recommended me and that made me feel a lot better