Afraid

Paige

I went home after chatting to Belle and Hanna. I had many emotions about how Belle is moving to Kingstown. Studying animation and moving to a big city seems like something that would be very exhausting for her. I think even when Hanna is moving over there with Belle, the situation of moving would be very stressful.

I thought back to when Belle was trying to study IT, and she was not doing very well in that course.

There are a lot of things that I am anxious about in my life myself and I started to worry about too. I think I must have anxiety or something. I was still astounded at my results of whether my cancer had returned.

I sighed because I really needed to call my dad about the news. I have mentioned before that my parents are abusive, and this is because they are alcoholics. As well them being alcoholics I also did not get along with them well and thought they were not treating me well because they were always telling me I was pathetic and worthless for not getting good grades all throughout school. Especially in high school. And university too.

When I was going to call my dad, I felt like I could not face the stress of having to hear my dad bully me. So that resulted in me not calling my dad. I decided to watch some TV and after watching TV for 2 hours I got a message from my dad. He was yelling at me and was saying about how he could not stand how Belle is acting. And that she should not be going to university in another city. He said Belle was acting what he thought, which was "very irritating." I went very silent when he was yelling at me. He told me that it is pathetic that I haven't called him yet. I rolled my eyes. "I called you yesterday. How is it bad that I have not called yet?"
"It is a bad thing that you have not called yet. And it is an embarrassment that you did not. Paige, you should really be ashamed of yourself. Especially when your crazy sister is acting like an embarrassing lunatic like you."
"Tim.....I think you need to stop talking to Paige. It is not nice to get angry at her."

I smiled. I was glad my mum defended me against my dad.

My mum snatched the phone off my dad. "Did you go to your appointment today, sweetie?" My mum asked.

"Yes, I did. I got the news that I am in remission. " I replied.

"Wow, that is good. Congratulations." My mum smiled.

Then, we talked more in-depth about the treatment. While I was talking to my mum, I was very astounded that my mum was being nice to me. I wanted to ask Mum why she was being so nice, but I felt weird asking her. I never really mentioned to my parents that I feel abused from them. I just keep it to myself, which is a sad thing I have to go through.

I cooked myself bacon and eggs for dinner. And then I went to bed a couple of hours after. I kept thinking to myself, "I hope my cancer gets better and that everything gets better for me. I really hate how abusive my parents are"