Our Arranged Marriage -Snape

13-Her Diary.

Severus Snape Pov

Finally Lunch time. I get a break from these Fools. I Wrapped up what I was doing after the last of the students left my classroom. I started my way to my Chambers, and I turned the corner. Ugh a Wesely. Why is she outside my chamber doors?

Then the door opened. Mae walked out. She looks beautiful. Her hair up in that High Pony. her Eye with a small sharp clean Wing.... Lips that look so soft. Don't go there, Severus. You don't like her. She doesn't like you. That's how it is and how it always will be.

Once the two girls were gone, I went into my chambers to find a Blanket on My Armchair, a Cup of half drunken tea on my coffee table along with a plate of cookie crumbs. I let out a grumpy groan. And bent down to pick up the plate and mug. But when I picked up the Mug, I knocked something next to it onto the floor. I Put the mug back on the table and bent down to inspect what had fallen. My eyes skimmed the words. What they found left me intrigued wanting more. Hate, Do I Have to, Love? Killed. What was this?

I picked up the Small black Book and opened it to read.

My Marriage to the King.

Book 1 Written by Mae Song.

She's Writing a book? I thought she liked cooking. Does she like both? I continued reading.

From a Distant land my father received a letter. He told me that the King of our neighboring kingdom wished to meet me. He was meeting Many fair Maidens from the kingdoms near and far to find his bride. I was called to be looked upon as an Option. That was a strange idea. What if I became the Queen to the most powerful Kingdom of all Lands. Is that something I would even want?

I've never wanted power. I was always thankful to my Older Brother. Because He would Inherit the throne Leaving me to just be a simple Princess free to do whatever I wished.

This isn't half bad actually. I wonder what the other book is about. Perhaps she's working on a different story as well. I opened the other book that had fallen and fell closed. To a random page it read.

It's very sweet of him to do this for me. I knew it would come eventually but somewhere deep down I was hoping I could avoid him being in the Room when I fell. But this past day No matter how Bitchy I've been because of my pain, and Hormones, he's Remained very kind and Helpful. Bringing me Food and Drink so I would have to move as little as possible... There's something about him. I don't know what it is yet but I'm going to find out.

Ok that sounded oddly familiar....

I hung out with Ginny today. We went shopping in Hogsmeade. We went to the bookstore, and Each got a copy of a book called The Lost apothecary. We're reading it at the same time. Apparently, She and Luna are getting serious but not official yet. Tho Ginny has Gotten a Promise ring to give to Luna. I'm going to ask her about it next time I see her.

Those are real people.... That's a real place... is this. No. It couldn't be. I flipped to more recent pages and read on.

I didn't have time to write yesterday. So, I guess you get two entries.

Entries Oh shit that confirms it. This is her Diary.

Yesterday I made cookies. Snape helped. I had to correct him a few times on how to measure things correctly... I helped him scoop the flour correctly and when I put my hands on his... I felt something. Butterflies. It kind of scared me. So, when the cookies were done, I left to see my family.

So that's why she left so Suddenly.

Draco helped me realize... I- I think I'm growing feelings for him... For Severus. I don't know why but... It scares me.

Feelings?! For me? Wait, why does that idea make me kinda happy?

And as for today. Well, when I got home, we talked. And I don't know how, but Our hands ended up touching, and that feeling happened again. More butterflies. I don't know what to do. What if I do have feelings for him...

Would... Would that really be so bad?... We are Married after all.

What if I fall in love with him but he doesn't feel the same way?

It doesn't matter. I'm in my room now and I don't intend to leave until tomorrow. I can't love him. Not if he won't love me back. I need to push these feelings down... Down deep.

I don't want her to bottle her feelings. I've done that. It doesn't end well. Wait. There's more? I turned the page and kept reading

I know I Normally Write at the end of the day. But there's just a lot in my mind right now... So last night I had a dream.

What kind of dream?

I'm not entirely sure what to make of it. And I'm Really not sure how to feel about it. In the dream I was in the middle of changing Getting ready for something I don't know what. But it looked like I was Laying out Teaching clothes. With an Apron? Perhaps I was a Teacher Teaching Cooking or Potions? I've seen Professor Snape wear Aprons when the potions he was teaching was messy.

Professor snape. So formal.

But just as I was taking off my Pj Shirt... Snape walked in. He smiled as he made his way next to me then behind me. His arms Wrapped around me, and I giggled. Somehow, we ended up on the bed.

Fuck this is a Sex Dream. I Should not be reading this.

My hands made their way to his belt, and I slowly took it off. Then his hands stopped me and pinned me to the bed. He leaned down and kissed me softly for a moment before the kisses turned rough. And he started moving his hips. I don't know How But even in the Dream state I could feel how Big he was. And Oh, Holy Goodness It was Hot... And HARD.

I Closed the book quickly before I could read anymore. That's Private. I shouldn't have kept going once I realized it was her Diary. I looked down to see a Bulge in my pants. When suddenly the Door to the Chambers Opened.

"Give me just a second I forgot To Put something away!" I heard Mae yell as she walked in. her head to the ground for a moment before she looked up, I quickly grabbed the long flowing cloak behind me and Drew It in front. "Oh. I didn't expect to see you." she laughed it off and approached me. She bent down to grab the other Black book I was reading briefly earlier when she paused. "...is that my book? Were you reading my book?" I guess she thought it was the Book she was writing and not her Diary. So, I lied.

"Uhm Yes. It fell open when I went to pick up the Mug. I read a few words and was intrigued." That's the truth. I Just won't tell her I read from both of the little black books.

"Wha- What do you think?" she asked, taking the book from my hands. With a look of Hope that I liked it.

"It- I thought it- What I read was nice. Very well put together."

"Your critiquing my book like a teacher." She pointed with a small laugh.... Merlin. her laugh was adorable.

"I guess I'm Still in Teacher mode."

"Mm. Well, I'll put this away and get it out of your way. I just came to Grab the Book I'm reading." She smiled and took the book from my hands. Taking the second one from the coffee table and moving to her room. Then After putting the books away and retrieving the Book she was reading with Miss Wesley. She left. "I'll see you later then." she smiled.

"Later" I whispered. As the door closed. Once it was shut, I removed my cloak from my front and looked down. Still hard Fuck.