Our Arranged Marriage -Snape

20- Feelings?

The next morning there was a bit of awkwardness. When I saw him in the kitchen making a cup of coffee. I gave him a small nervous, but friendly smile. And he silently waved back. Not bothering to smile.

He left the room almost as quickly as I entered. I felt bad. If I didn't get scared last night, then this awkwardness between us wouldnt be here. I feel Guilty.

His hands lowered as he kissed me, they slipped under my skirt. And I panicked. Then when his finger grazed my clit, I stifled a moan. And in a moment of fear, I pushed against him and got off. "I'm sorry, I just... I can't." I took a deep breath and looked at him for a moment. Then I turned and practically ran to my room.

I don't want this awkwardness between us. I mean I li-... I- I like him. Holy Shit. I like him. Like... I LIKE Him.

He's about to leave for his first class. And I won't see him until after I get home from culinary class. I needed to act fast. "Severus!" I practically ran out of the kitchen and caught him halfway out of the door. He paused.

"What do you need?" he asked coldly, but I could hear the sadness and betrayal in his voice.

I didn't answer with words. I just walked up to him and placed a kiss on his lips. With a whisper in his ear after. "I'm sorry about last night." I looked him in his eyes. "I wouldn't totally be against it... But It-... This." I pointed to the both of us quickly. "Is... New." I smiled softly. "I just can't do it all at once."

He nodded softly in agreement. "Understood..." he then left and closed the door behind him. I stood at the door. I turned around and was about to take a step before the door opened again and he popped his head inside again. "And for the record I wouldn't be totally against it either." he said, grabbing my hand and placing a kiss on it. Before disappearing out the door again.

~~~Time skips about a month or so~~~

"Chef Gabrel had us make Cranberry stuffed chicken breast today" I smiled as I opened the door to our chambers holding a plate of 2 chicken breasts.

"Sounds delicious." He said standing up from his armchair and putting down his newspaper. He took the plate from my hands and conjured two separate plates. He set the table. I thanked him as I went to my room to change out of my school Uniform. When I came back, he was lighting candles.

"A little fancy. For food I brought back from culinary school." I say with a smile.

"I know but you took so long changing that I had some spare time, and I thought I would light some candles." he said, smiling back and pulling out a chair for me.

I let out a small laugh as he pushed my chair in. Then he sat in his chair across from me. We began to eat in our usual, comfortable (although sometimes it was rather uncomfortable) Silence. I couldn't help but to ask. Like I did with practically every meal I made. "So do you like it?"

After a moment of thinking he nodded. "It's quite nice. You've been Improving." Like normal his voice was steady. But there was a small hint of pride.

"Well, that's only natural. It's what school does... Helps you improve." I smiled.

He put his fork down after his last bite and looked at me intensely. I got slightly nervous. Why is he staring at me so hard? When I finished with my food he stood up and offered his hand. Confused, I took it. He led me out of our chamber, and we started on a walk.

It was strange but nice. To be walking in the Silence. Eventually he finally spoke. "Mae..." he started. His voice was low. "I... I've been meaning to talk to you about something."

"Yes?" I asked quietly. My voice is slightly higher than normal from nerves.

He opened his mouth to say something then didn't, shaking his head. "Never mind."

"What is it?"

"It's nothing." he looked to the floor avoiding my eye contact

"No. Severus What is it?" I pushed.

"... It's strange..." he said, slowing his walking Speed.

"What's strange?"

"At the beginning of this, I was not happy, and I didn't care if you were." he started. "But." he looked at me and paused. "Are you...?"

"Am I what?"

"Happy?... I mean Happy living...With... me?" his words got slower, and quieter with each word as it passed his lips.

I looked surprised at his question. "You know? Strangely... I am. It's not as bad as I thought it was going to be... and I didn't really truly know what I was going to do or where I was going to move after I graduated..."

"You could have lived with the Malfoys... They are like your family are they not?"

"Well yes... And I Love them, don't get me wrong. But they are truly better in moderation." I laughed. "I would take them over Grant Any day though!" I laughed a little harder. Then I looked at him seriously. "Why do you ask... You should know I'm happy..."

"I find myself seeming to actually care for you now... I want you to be happy, and I want you to Live your dream... I want you to have everything." After he stared at me for a long moment, he was finally able to say it. Finally able to say it all.

"It's strange actually... I feel the same. I want you to be happy... and I have a feeling I'm not the only one when I say this... but I believe I've started developing feelings for you... Like Real Feelings." I pause and wait for his response... I pray I did not cross a line. Then, a kiss. A simple kiss. Yet full of emotion, it was placed on my lips. And I knew at that moment we were on the same page.

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