The Rain

To Hate Is To Love Chapter 13

William's POV.....

I hate my job. The job my brother assigns me to do. The job were I have to stalk the girls he wants to fuck. I have been "watching" this girl for over a week now. She isn't the usual girl my brother would go for but she is still pretty I guess. Today I have too "accidentally" bump into her and talk to her for a while. The usual, well for me....

Right just smile at her like it was all okay with you I thought to myself while she apologised to me. Blah blah blah the usual crap comes out of my mouth about the rain and all that. Right now she is enjoying talking to me I need to end it here and go so she will look forward to seeing me again I guess.

Gahh I hate this bit where I just stand out in the rain watching her from this stupid tree! It is cold and just urg. Sometimes I wander why am I doing this for my brother but then I remember what happened when I joined and how I had to and why I needed to stay in his good books.

Oh bugger her mates are here! Shit their throwing things at her window and I'm right in front of it bugger!! She's standing up now is the only chance I would be seen is if I jump but that will ruin my leg for a good week. Oh well better than nothing. Yep it is screwed for a few weeks or days hoping days.

I run across the the road so I was on the over side of the street and I stand and observe her. Well my brother says your just "observing" the girls for that's all. If only I realised that it was a load of bull 3 years ago.. a sigh escapes my lips as I realised I have had enough of it all! But I cant say that to Lee he would kill me like with a gun and everything!

The Stella girl see's me and I wave towards her like I would normally do and sprint away when her mate turns around. Ta da I was there and now I'm not. I laugh at my sarcasm as I see Stella's face scrunch up with confusion. Finally her mates leave and I can go back to my tree to "observe" her.

My brother made a good choice. Good body, easy to look at face. It's amazing to think that I was dead against rape about 3 years ago when I was 13. But now it is like second nature to me. What the old side of me hates but the new me loves it is like a discise I can wear and no will know me I'm in control. Well my brother is. God I need a joint but I cant smoke on the job just in case it gives me away.

Bored bored bored! Boom went the thunder and I see Stella jump up in fright. God that was so funny! Wait where is she going bugger I cant see her no more! What felt like 2 hours but really only half an hour Stella walks over to her window and looks right at me but she cant see me.

After staring into her really nice eyes we hear her alarm clock go off. She sighs goes to bed. Her mum walks in and Stella plays ill really well or good enough for her mum to believe anyway. And now I watch her sleep. Sleep to me is like oblivion so sweet carm nothing can ever touch you there. FUCK I got to stop thinking about death in a sleep way! My hands rub away the tiredness in my eyes and I see Stella get up. Show time.

I knew she was going to walk her dogs because I heard her mum tell them Stella's walking you. Ha stalking can be fun and now I can play games in her head the way it is meant to be.

Perfect she is walking towards my little trap to make her fall onto her face. So basically I'm going to be her knight in shinning armor. When really I'm her creepy stalker WOOP to all the stalkers. Ha.

Haha funnier than i thought it would be. She looked at me with her deep blue eyes. Much nicer blue than mine lucky her. William help her up! I thought to my self. She thanks me and I do my usual bull by saying "oh i think i know you from somewhere!" takes her like 10 minuets to recognise me but she gets it i act like omg no way!!

We chat for a long time till we are interrupted by her stupid mates phoning her. God why do people always try and get in my way? Wow she actually blew them off to talk to me longer wow. Now what would they do in the movies oh yeah they would make like loads of jokes and stuff. Well that is what I'm gonna do.

Thank-God I got to sleep tonight. Only because I'm going to Stella's school tomorrow, so I am allowed to sleep. My brother is so generous isn't he. Sarcasm anyone? Oh well guess no one got it but I did! Hmm why am I going to her school you as. Well I don't even know why, I do what my brother tells me to do so yeah.

One of the lads who are in my brothers gang works at the school. And he has Stella first so he's in the plan as well. He knows she is skipping and he knows where to find her. He walks towards me with Stella trailing behind he smiles and winks at me to get ready.

He does the introduction sadly using my real surname what me and my brother changed three years ago. God why did he do that he know I bloody hate it that's the reason you change things right? Shit I have no time to get annoyed about that. Stella looks at me and her mouth flys open with shock I smirk at that. I want to ask her if she missed me. But I can not be cocky I'm meant to be a boy who is innocent and sweet. Like I used to be, my brother described to me.

When Alex left me and Stella were alone she asked some questions I acted annoyed and then she started the tour. We made small talk till we finished the tour and we sat on these comfy chair things and we just talked well till she asked some questions what made me think about my past so I blew up in her face. Hey what do you expect from a fucking damaged kid. I apologised to her because I'm meant to be the old me so I do what i meant to. At the end of the day she is like "will I see see your Monday" I'm like "sure what ever" and I walk over to my brothers car what he is high in.

"sup little brother!!" I just nod in his direction. "You wont be watching her tonight" I look up at him "Why?" he takes a long drag from his joint and passes it to me and I do the same. I look into his blood shot eyes and he tells me why "She is eating at the restaurant tonight so I will try and be nice to her and if she says no I will rape her simple as mate" I just nod I'm used to his way of life he has now.

When we got home I decided to get wasted and high best time of my life. I passed out and don't remember a thing.

Lee tells me I get the day off again. Only because he is annoyed she turned him down so he needs me to help make a plan. But instead he got drunk and we went walking around her town area. And guess what we are walking right behind her while she walks by her self. Perfect chance. I call out her name and hide behind Alex who laughs I hiss "I cant loose my cover now" all he does is nod and says "what-ever you say mate". She turns around and see's Lee and turns around again and puts her head phones in and practically runs for her life. But she forgot she has 19 and one 16 year old following her. In 5 strides we have circled her.

Lee grabs her wrist when she trys to go to her house. Lee says something but she doesn't hear him cause of her music. So he goes violent and pulls them out. I hear a whimper of pain escape her lips. For some reason I wanted to stop him but I couldn't. He would kill me like with the gun and everything. god I hate him but I prefer him to mum and that shitty step-dad of ours.

Lee leaned in and whispered the usual crap about what he was going to do to her. Tears rolled down her cheek. Pain, guilt both these emotions ran through me. Then she screamed they never do that. Lee let go of her big mistake. She legged it but Lee was stronger and faster. He rugby tackled her and slapped her I think he called her a bitch I don't know all I could see was her brother. The guy who was on a break from the army cause he shot like 2000 people from the bad side and he was getting a prize I don't know. But what i did know was to fear him.

Tom punched lee and lee went flying. I went towards my brother to help him up but he hit me away. I made sure Stella didn't see my face. but I think I failed. Lee and Tom argued for awhile till Tom said he knew people who would kill us and make it look like suicide. That is when Lee gave up and told Stella "he will be back" and we all legged it back home. Where we got more drunk and way too high. And I realise to hate is to love because, I hate what i do but I love the girls i get to meet.

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Hey the song has  nothing to do with this chapter but it is one of my favourites so i thought i should share :D Mcfly- Transylvania (I love THEM <3 xx)