The Rain

The Pain Chapter 14

Stella looked at her cheek. The cheek, which had a large red mark. A shape of a hand was very visible. Stella sighed as she put on her pale foundation, but sadly working out that it was too pale for the mark on her face. Stella groaned on the inside, why did all the bad things happen to her? She always followed the rules, she never once broke the law and she never ever did anything to offend anyone.

Ever since that night Stella has felt eyes boring into her back with so much pain it made her feel sad. But she was mostly freaking out because she might have a peeking tom watching her get ready for bed and everyday life! For all she knew it could be him.

Stella didn’t want to go to school today but her mum said it would be good to get out of the house and see her friends. But all Stella could do is look at her mum and nod because, because well she didn’t know. They went to the police and apparently she wasn’t the only girl who was "raped" well for her attempted "raped" by this guy. But they are never able to catch him it is like he is one step ahead of them.

The one thing Stella is dreading most is seeing William. Funny how she was beginning to trust him. Stella has always had trust issues, and the only people she actually trust is he family aka mum dad and her two brothers and then Chace, Blake and parker. God she missed her carefree days when nothing ever happened to her. The days when she could just sit in the park and have a laugh instead of fearing that she could be raped again. Or kidnapped again. Stella shuddered at that thought and stroked the line across her had with the initials JM. Jason Mannon, her first love. Ha that was a lie.

Jason cheated on her, Stella found out. She broke it off but he couldn’t take it. Now all the memories were flying back to her. Those dark and horrible 3 months of her life, they still find away to get back at her

------FLASHBACK!!! ZOOM ZOOM!!*IN STELLA'S POV!!*-----------

I sat waiting for my dad to come pick me up from trampoline. The one sport I loved well except swimming. it was raining really heavy but the annoying thing was that the sports lady left like an hour ago so I’m stuck out her in the cold waiting for my dads silver Mercedes to come rolling up. With my dad's cheesy grin, and Tom and Colin to be bickering after football practice. Football was one thing dad was good with well he would prefer if they would play rugby but that’s a different story.

Finally my dads silver car comes rolling by. I walk towards it, smiling widely till I see Jason. I stop in my tracks and he comes out of his car. "Miss me baby?" he asked with his arms open wide for me to go running into like I used to, "fuck no! Jason leave me alone. Don’t you think you have hurt me enough?" I asked to my first love that broke my heart. "But darling that is the past come on now don’t be like that!" Jason looked at me with pity in his eyes trying the tricks the 'used' to work on me. I shook my head violently at him. He laughs darkly and says "fine then we will do it the hard way" he comes towards me and then it goes black.

I wake up in this dark, damp room what I soon realise to be very, very small. I gulp trying to remember what happened but there was no need. The voice what used to send chills of excitement up my spine spoke my name out "Stella baby I still love you. and I know you still love me" he said these word slowly while his cold hands were working their way up my legs "come on baby don’t play hard to get remember the fun we used to have?" he questioned me. Of course I remembered the fun we had we dated for 2 years for god’s sake. I finally found my voice "Jason please let me go. You have hurt me too much please, please let me move on" even though there was little to almost no light I could see his face change drastically.

"You, you ungrateful bitch!" I shook at those words, the words what were meant to send pain though my body with out leaving a mark to show what he did. "I gave up 3 years of my life to you! And the way you repay me is leaving me?" he growled towards me. I was stupid and kept answering back “I WASNT THE ON WHO CHEATED! WAS I" I screamed through my sobs “you told me you loved me Jason! But really you slept around and used a child! I’m 14 your 17! Don’t you think that is a bit creepy?" I asked. His face turned to disgust when I brought up out age. "It never bothered you when we dated!" he screamed at me I shook my head and cowered trying to be smaller then I was already. "Well it is too late. You are mine now! No one can ever have you!" that’s when he crushed his lips to mine and stood up and left me in my dark corner.

It got worse the longer I was there some days he would come down drunk and rape me. It wasn’t like it used to be when he loved me he was gentile and always said he loved me after wards. Now he just pulls down his trousers and fucks me then pulls them back up and leaves.

Some days I trace the scar on my belly. I was run over when me and Jason met. He was my night in shining armour. I wasn’t seriously injured well I was but wasn’t. My hip bone just kind of broke the skin so it was sticking out but nothing like organs or at least my head wasn’t hit! But from back then Jason was special to me and I thought we would be together forever. Ha to my stupid ignorance, I wasn’t innocent, I should have known and shunned the age gap I was 11 when I meant him he was 14! How stupid was I. Look where it has landed me now?

"Baby guess what!" I looked up at him with fear and worry. I saw a glint of sliver in his hand I stared at it for a long time. "Not going to answer me baby well it doesn’t matter, because I have been waiting to hear you scream again. And here is my chance, you see you have been with me for a month and I thought why not celebrate with erm a souvenir!" I looked more closely at the sliver thing in his had and then realisation hit me like a truck! It was a knife and it was big like a carving knife. "Jason please don’t hurt me. Please just let me go please" he looked at me for a while and his face went back to the old Jason I used to know "but if I do that I will loose you Stells-a-bell" his voice was more that a whisper. But I lost him as soon as he came "this is what you have done to me! Now give me your leg” I did as I was told, I was no longer clothed. Basically I was starker’s, I was nuder then a nude sculpture! I gave him my leg always keeping my eyes on the knife.

He twirled the knife around my leg till finally he dug it in to hard I thought it got to my bone. I screamed well that was an understatement, Australians could properly hear me! He smiled as he dragged the knife down my thigh till he got to my knee cap. He pulled out the knife that cut me. He came towards my ear and whispered "smile for the camera baby they love you!" I was confused at what he meant till a flash of light dazzled me. He kissed me and left me there to bleed. He came back 5 minuets later realising how deep he cut me and cleaned me up and put a bandage on it. He used me again and left pulling up his trousers.

The next month he did the same except this time down my back. From my left shoulder to my right hip deep and painful. Just as he wanted. He did the same like he did last month until the third month when he wanted my hand. He asked "what hand to you write with?" I lifted my left hand he nodded and pulled it towards his leg and placed it there. he pulled out a smaller knife and cut a long dash from the bottom of my pinkie to the start of my thumb them he put his initials above the line messy but still neat and when he finished the m there was suddenly light plastered in the dark room and I passed out and woke up in hospital the next week.

-------------END OF FLASH BACK! BACK TO 3RD PERSON POV!---------

Stella shook her head and began to walk down the stairs. Unable to shake off the feeling of eyes were watching her. She knew she wouldn’t be able to work today but she needed distractions. The close to being raped was bringing back the memories of Jason. The man who she still, sadly loved and cared deeply for. But she would never tell anyone that because they would be disappointed in her. She just knew they would.