The Rain

I Do What I Do For You Chapter 16

Pre-warning in this chapter it may be confusing because of character change and stuff but really this one is going to look into Stella and Jason Mannon’s past.

This is the bit in the story when the author tells you how the murder unfolded. But in this case it isn’t. Thanks to many people Stella has had an interesting life.  As she puts it “this is how you made me”, she says this many times to her family when they say stuff. But sadly this is for someone different. This is for a man. A man who hurt her, the man who she never thought she would ever see again, but then again you never know.

Stella takes in a deep breath as she walks up the stone, gray steps towards the prison. This prison holds the one person who hurt her the most, he is named Jason Mannon and he has been in prison for 4 years 5 months 2 weeks and 4 days. She only knows this because she counts how long it has been, everyday since that day. But no one knows of course like how no one knows she is going to visit him.

Stella walks up to the desk to see if she can visit Jason. A nice old lady looks up at her smiling sweetly towards her. “Hello, how can I help you today sweetie?” she asks with a kind old voice, Stella had too take a deep breath before she said “hi, I I I am here to see, errm Jason Mannon. He has been here for around 4 years 5 months, I think” the old lady looks at Stella with her watery blue eyes which still shine with hope. “You must be the young lady he hurt, if I am allowed to ask?” she asks sweetly all Stella did was nod her head slightly. “Well then why do you want to see him?” Stella thought for a second “if you thought he loved you, and you loved him wouldn’t you want to know, how someone could love you but hurt you in so many ways Miss? Wouldn’t you want to know if he really loved you or only wanted to use you? Would you not want to know some answers? When no one will answer them? And personally I think you have over stepped you boundaries there Miss”. The sweet old lady’s colour changed from lovely to instantly horrible, she huffed for a minuet till she said “Go wait in there, sit on one of the green chairs and wait for him to come”. With that Stella left to go see the man who hurt her and made her love him.

--------------------------------JASON MANNON------------------------------------------

I was keeping my business to myself like usual, till a police man walked over to me all high and mighty as they think they are. “Are you Jason Mannon, serial number 22189?” asked the man I look up and reply like a good boy “yes. Sir I am”. He nods and makes a hand signal to follow him. I do as I say because I’m hoping to get out on probation so I need to be good. He suddenly stops at the visitor door; I haven’t had a visitor since my dad told me he has disowned me as his son, on the first day I arrived here. Funny to think that someone is here to see me. “Right kid, Stella James is here to see you. If you try to touch her, hurt her or anything in that way we will take you right out and beat the shit out of you. Got it?” I just nod. Stella is here to see me. My gut twists and turns just thinking about her, god why did I do that to her, I loved her and she loved me. The man opens the doors and leads me to the seats Stella is in. she looked so scared and confused. My heart felt like it stopped when I saw her, she was still beautiful just like she used to but she has finally fully formed into a lady. I sat across her and she looked up.

Her blue eyes looked so vulnerable just like the day I hurt her. Still full of tears waiting too fall but she still looked determined. “H-h-h-hello Jason” was all she could say to me. I smile and reply “Hey Stells” her eyes changed to anger “don’t call me that, I only came her to ask question what no one could answer for me” she spat at me, she is meant to love me how could she talk to me like that? “But Stells is your nick name, Stella please don’t tell me that I can not call you the nickname I first called you when we met” I said and her body shudder a repressed cry and looked at me “no memories Jason just answered, please just do that for me. Please” her eyes cried out to me I could only nod I had this one thing to make things right between us I will.

She takes a shaky breath before she started to talk “why?” I looked at her confused “why what?” I asked. “Why would you hurt someone you love, you told me that you loved me and you hurt me. People who love each other don’t hurt each other right?” she looked at me like a child lost in a place she will never ever find peace. I took a deep breath readying myself as I begin to tell her my side of her story.

----Jason’s Memory of that period of time) -----

A couple of friends and I were drinking a lot I was still hurt from our break-up. I was telling them how you cached me and that girl. I was really drunk so I was constantly saying I don’t get why she left I was only playing around. It wasn’t until Joe said “why don’t you like kidnap her then she will be yours forever and you can still play around” I wasn’t thinking Stells. I yelled “that was a great idea tomorrow she has that sport thing she does, you guys deal with her dad and I will pick her up from there and keep her forever!”. We all nodded and drank some more and then passed out as I remember. They didn’t want to go through with the plan, but I had to Stells, you don’t know how much I regretted that day we broke up I wanted you back so bad. I still do.

Sorry this isn’t the right time to tell you that. Anyway I forced them too by bringing up debts they owed me for years so they did it. And I picked you up; I was quite stupid thinking you would be happy to see me, but god I wanted you to be you know? But I realised I would have to work for your love again; basically I thought this was romantic taking you back with me. We could have eloped to somewhere beautiful you know? But you wouldn’t let me in when I talked to you and, and I was stupid. I thought maybe if I hurt you, you would realise that I only did it because I loved you.

The scars I gave you were so you would never forget our love and how we completed each other, but I guess I got that wrong to. I never thought that what I was doing to you was bad you know? I thought that the more I pushed you the more you would remember us. But God did I get that wrong, I pushed you further into that corner not closer to me. I wish that I could show you that in the way of pain I gave you I only did that so I could have you back. But really I was a person who caused pain and misery to you, the person I wanted to win back……

--------End of Memory--------------

I watched Stella carefully waiting for her reaction, but she showed me nothing …… what is that about?

-----------Stella’s POV-------------------

I could not show my emotions to that home wreaking liar. So I go back in my shell and show no emotions, none what so ever. But really I was screaming inside.

“Stells are you okay?” he asked me with stupid “apparent” love, what a load off bull in my mind. “Sorry. But no that isn’t love Jason that is stalking. You are such a bloody liar for god sake. You never loved me, I was the girl you pulled along but when I found out and left you, you couldn’t have that because you’re the “boss” but no” I shook my head till it hurt tears rolling down my eyes I couldn’t take it anymore, I loved him and I think I still do this hurts too much. Why did I even go? I was about to stand up when a quiet voice stopped me.

“Stella it was never like that. Please just hear me out please” his gray eyes looked at me with such sadness. “What Jason you have hurt and scared me enough look at my hand, my thigh and my back that was physical pain. But if you look at my heart you will see so many burns, stitches and pain I always thought I would marry you that we would be happy forever but no you wrecked that”. He looked at me and shook his head and said “sorry Stella, I really am… I never think about anyone but myself. But just think about our past wasn’t it great? We could have that again! Just think Stella”. That was when I laughed at his face, he looked hurt and confused. “Sorry mate, no way am I going back to you, you made my life hell and I could never love you again.  I am here today to close that chapter of my life. No offence I would have jumped at the thought if you never scared me but you did. Sorry Jason but this will be the last time you will see me, sorry but I hope you have a good life when you get out of here” that is when I stand up and signal the police officer over to tell him I am going to hug Jason, he looks at me funny but then I said “this is a goodbye for ever hug like the one what means see you maybe when we are dead one” the police officer laughed and nodded an okay. Jason looked at me with shock but I took that in my stride and hugged him goodbye and turned around in a swift movement and left this horrible place.

I have worked out I was not in love with Jason I was in love with the memory of our relationship. Maybe I will find someone but right now I am happy I have finally finished his chapter in my book and now I can forget him and stop counting the days from that accident. And have a life. Maybe fall in love? I don’t know but now I feel free. Suddenly the rain came down.