Everything's Changed. Harry Styles.

06

2011
Malibu, California

Harper

It's warmer here than we thought it was going to be and I'm suddenly happy I wore shorts. I do feel bad for the boys though, they're all wearing pants. Harry was even wearing a jacket at one point.

The boys just got back to filming after taking a quick break and I was left holding Harry's water bottle and jacket as he walked backwards, giving me a big smile. I rolled my eyes, making a show of me drinking out of his water bottle. He scoffed and held his hand to his chest. He laughed a little before turning around and focusing on the director.

I went back to sit in the chairs under a tent the crew had set up. Today is day one of filming and it's been as long day. We got here pretty early and apparently we're going to be here until late. This is the part where the girls are joining the boys. I haven't met them yet, they've all been getting ready with the crew.

I've mostly just been sitting by myself, watching Harry as he does his scenes. He has been making faces at me whenever the camera isn't on him, making me laugh quietly to myself. And each break he has he comes over to talk to me. I think he's trying to make sure I don't feel alone without saying it outright. Which, I appreciate, but I knew what it would be like hanging out with him on days like this. I'm just glad I get to be with him and not at home alone like usual.

He looks like he's having so much fun, and he and the boys are getting along really well. Especially for people who met not that long ago and were forced to pretty much live together for the foreseeable future. Sometimes I find myself holding my breath as they do something stupid, afraid one of them is going to get hurt. Like Louis today, who decided to jump off something and into the sand a good ten feet or more below him. And then there's other times when they're making everyone laugh, like today when they got pulled over twice for driving too slow and the crew had to cut shooting and restart.

The boys are nice though, they welcomed me with open arms. I'm not super close with any of them yet but when we hangout it doesn't feel awkward. It just feels, normal I guess, comfortable. I try my best to not act awkward around them, and if I do it usually goes unnoticed because they thankfully don't pay too much attention to me. I'm still somewhat unsure of how to handle myself in groups of people, seeing as Harry was pretty much my only friend through school, still kinda is my only friend.

I'm not sure how much Harry has told them but they didn't seem shocked when I started hanging around more often. I'm also not sure what Harry told their team in order for me to be able to be here. It doesn't look like any of the others boys have anyone here.

I was afraid to ask what Harry told everyone, not wanting anyone to feel pity for me or look at me differently. Harry is the only one who knows anything about my life, even though he doesn't know everything, and I'd like to keep it that way.

The boys ran through some more scenes, taking breaks when they could and next thing I knew Harry was getting ready for a solo scene. I heard the music start up again and watched as Harry stepped up to one of the girls, their faces almost touching.

I felt heart squeeze and my stomach drop.

The scene felt like it took forever, having to redo over and over again.

Then it was over, and Harry was told he could take a break. Next thing I knew he was heading towards me and I put a smile on my face, standing up to hand him his water bottle.

"So what do you think?"

"It looks good! I think it's gonna turn out really well." I mustered my best smile, hoping he couldn't see through it.

"You think so?" He looked over his shoulder to see them getting ready to shoot another scene with one of the other boys.

"Yeah, I'm sure all the girls will love it." He turned to look at me with a funny face, questioning what I said.

Did I say that snippy? Fuck. It's fine, just smile.

I stole his water bottle back and took a sip, averting my eyes from his.

"Are you.. jealous?" He took a step forward, giving a sly smile.

"What? You're ridiculous." I scoffed, twisting the cap back on the bottle.

"Uh huh, sure." He took another step forward.

"Yep."

"I think you're lying." Now he was stood right in front of me, a big cocky grin on his face. I scoffed again, crossing my arms over my chest.

"I never lie to you."

"Liar."

"Would you just go back to work please." I motioned to the crew behind us who were calling his name. He took the water bottle back and took another sip before handing it to me again.

"No need to be jealous, flower, you know you're my favorite girl." He winked at me before turning on his heel and running off. I blew out a breath I didn't realize I was holding and flopped back down into the chair.

I'm starting to think he knows what he's doing to me.