TW!!! Continue at your own risk thank you!!!!
The thing that made me use this tactic for the first time was my parents, my friends, my reflection and those who don't understand me
I suppose I don't even understand myself
I crafted my first sharp object from that plastic sharpener in my pencil case
I threw it against the wall as hard as I could and when I heard the 'ping' I knew I was ready
I waited until my parents weren't home and then I took a big breath and pulled out the razor
The pain was like the thing I've been searching for
It makes me think about something else
I wish I knew then that I would become this infatuated with this tiny object
Everyday at school I'm searching the crowds for someone I know
But this object doesn't come in a person
It doesn't give me the same satisfaction
I can do this on my own terms
Without anyone else telling me how to do it
I can cut as much as I like
I might become this self-obsessed person
But at least I'm not letting a person break my heart
In ways I wished I never knew how
This tiny metal object doesn't show me I'm weak
It shows me I'm strong and that I'm capable
But it also shows me that I'm not alone
And there are many more struggling like me
You just have to have the eye
You know someone else is hurting when you are the one also hurting
But I am not alone
And neither are you
You are finally at home
- taylor
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