Soulmate System - Minsung

Chapter 27 - Spread the news

Han Jisung

Emotions are confusing.

If you said I was happy when I walked through the main doors of my university building that morning, my hand locked with Minhos, you wouldn't be wrong.

If you said I was confused, still dealing with the way my heart feels around my bestfriend and the changes I've begun to accept, that's also correct.

And if you said I was anxious, terrified out of mind underneath the smile I had displayed, you'd be absolutely right.

I don't know what to expect, coming back to school and my normal life with all these new aspects. How I was going to face my friends? I have so much to catch them up on, if they're even willing to listen.

They probably think I'm a crybaby and overreacted.

"Jisung. Tell me what your thinking?" Minhos thumb rubs up and down my hand, reminding me that we were at school, walking to our shared class with changbin.

Changbin and... Baekho.

"N-nothing hyung I'm just... nothing." I shake my head, trying to ignore the panic bubbling in my stomach. Baekho never shows up to that class anyway, I have nothing to be worried about. Don't overreact and make things worse for Minho.

"Sung, remember what we said about secrets?" Minho frowns, his sharp eyes looking over me with concern, as if he was trying to read my expression while we walked.

"Yeah- yeah I do. I'm fine." I repeat, shaking my head and blinking rapidly, hoping to convince myself as well.

But it wasn't sudden, it was never sudden, I could always feel the symptoms coming back, slowly but still in the back of my mind. From the way my fingernails wouldn't stop stabbing into the palm of my free hand to the pressure building in my chest.

It was hard to miss, but easy to want to ignore.

Panic.

Minho lets out a sigh, squeezing my hand as he leads me through the familiar hallways, up to our shared lecture hall. I couldnt find the words to fill the silence between us.

What was I going to tell changbin?

What was I going to tell everyone?

They would ask about my soulmate, and then I'd have to tell them that I broke up with Baekho. Do I even have the strength to share all this? Would they even care to know, or was I just throwing my problems at people?

Or did Minho even want to tell anyone yet? Maybe he was still suffering and I'm not doing enough for him? What if he's still thinking that I'd want to leave him-

"Sungie?" Minho sends me a small smile, stopping infront of the door, "We're here, but we can take another lap around the hall if you're not ready? Let me know please."

Oh he's so kindhearted I wanted to rip my hair out.

I'm making things worse. I should be stronger for Minho, I shouldn't be so scared over another stupid day of stupid college.

But the way Minho looked down at me, he had such loving eyes. They made me feel so.. wanted? Like all the thoughts of not being enough would vanish once I saw his eyes.

I don't know what he sees in me. How could someone like Lee Minho ever love me? Nobody else, not even my boyfriend of 2 years, could love me... but Minho still does.

I just don't get why?

Maybe he only loves me because he found out we were soulmates before I did.