𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙞𝙧𝙚

18.) nasty thoughts.

                                sohna-sohna,
                     itanaa bhi kise tu sohna?

tere ishq mein jogi hona,
mainu jogi hona!

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ashima’s POV:-

Sometimes I feel like I found everything in just one person whom I hated in the beginning. The person who is now like drugs to me is everything I want to see him, wanna touch him, feel him, smell him and wanna do every single good and bad deed with him. I'm addicted to him. Whenever I see him my heartbeat increases like a rollercoaster. 

He is just like the ocean in my Sahara desert. I mind and my soul everything is for him. I placed my hand on my heart and while my eyes were closed. I took a deep breath before saying “is that love”? I asked myself “or more than love”? Whenever I closed my eyes I saw him. Whenever I inhale Air. I feel his smell. 

Should I tell him about my feelings or not? But what if he rejected me or he just likes me as a friend? I'm not in a situation to accept the fact that I don't like him. I huffed out my chain of thoughts and poured the coffee in my new coffee mug which I bought at the mall with my colleague. I took one sip from it and tried to open the bag which he gave me sometimes before. 

My cramps are better than before. I used the hot pad to decrease my pain. I tore the paper package and opened the lid of the box when I saw a lot of different types of chocolate inside it. It's around 100+ chocolates which is half of the brand I didn't know. Means he brought these chocolates for me but why? I immediately dialed his number and after around two rings he picked up. 

Hello, a dark and melodious voice came from the other side of the phone. “Aadin , what is this”? I responded immediately, waiting for his reply. He spoke after a few seconds “what”.

Seriously!!!

He is asking me the question when he knows what I meant. “Aadin , don't test my patience level tell me why you brought these chocolates for me” I took a deep breath then continued “aur woh bhi itni saari”. 

“Because I wanted to”. He speaks nonchalantly. 

“Seriously yaar, who buys a whole damn 100+ chocolates and you say, because I wanted to,huhh? Are you serious? " I raised my voice a little because I'm not satisfied with his answer. My curiosity is at its peak. 

“Ok so you wanna know why I give those chocolates to you huhh?” He asked and nodded in response instantly. “You are on your periods and I know that when a woman is on their periods they want to eat something sweet so I bought these for you, now you got your answer?” 

I don't know how to respond to this statement. I am speechless right now because no way he bought this all for me. He cares about me. Don't he? My mouth went wide. I tried to speak but my mind went numb. Nothing came from my mouth. It's so overwhelming for me I can't even handle it. I don't know why but a drop of tear dripped from my eyes. Maybe because of the love, affection and care I feel right now. 

I wiped my flowing tears and tried to utter the words I feel now. But before me he says “hello ashima, are you there” then I understand that I was so lost “umm-uhh-i'm sorry I was lost somewhere”. 

“Now you got your answer?” he utters. “Can I….” He was about to say something when I cut him off. “thank you thank you yaar” I said emotionally.

“You are best I love y—” I was about to complete the sentence when I realized what I'm saying, I stopped in the middle and cleared my throat loudly “you are best aadin, thanks for the chocolates”.