𝓓𝐑𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝓡𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐑 𝓘𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒

𝐒𝐇𝐀 𝐆𝐙

"I SLEEP SO I CAN SEE YOU
'CAUSE I HATE TO WAIT SO LONG,"

   IT HAD BEEN AGES since you and Sha had seen each other. Although it was only two months, it still felt like years and even centuries due to the fact that both of you never had any time to see each other. You were busy with work and college while he was busy making music and going to the studio. The two of you had busy and chaotic schedules that never seemed to ever let you two link up, well it was mostly him. Nonetheless, it felt as if the universe hated you two being together and was trying its best to pull him away from you, or vice versa.

   Lots of plans had been cancelled due to the way he worked, including the street shit he had going on at the same time. Despite the failed plans, you two pushed through the relationship even if it felt like it wasnt going to work due to his complicated lifestyle which was very different from yours.

   It hurt sometimes, just thinking about it. You were constantly on edge, worried that maybe one day he wouldnt come back to you alive and well. Anything could happen, this world was dangerous, and it was something you knew and thought about heavily. It was a lingering concern, paranoia getting the best of you sometimes.

   It felt like a blessing when you heard from Sha that he would be coming over, finally fitting in some room for you in the midst of his chaotic life. You couldnt have been happier and best of all, he had made sure to fix his schedule up to the point that he would be able to see you on a daily basis again.

   Once the day had finally come, you had been waiting in anticipation for the clock to display his arrival. Two months were too long, much too long for you, and most long for him. He had been aching to see you again, to touch you, hold you, and to love you unconditionally like he had meant to, during all those days he had, unfortunately, let go to waste.

   At the moment, you two were laid in bed together, backs propped up against the headboard with his arms around you while he rested his head on yours, eyes shut and everything. His limbs were interwined with yours, his arms keeping a tight, but comforting, grasp on you as if you would somehow disappear. The movie you two were supposed to be watching right now had gone to waste, completely discarded, though it was still playing on your TV.

   Sha just wanted to hold you, honestly. Especially after those long and painful months of being without you. He couldnt imagine life without you and he had even wondered how he had survived during those two months away from you.

   It was silent for a while before he finally spoke, breaking the silence that surrounded you both.
"..I love you so bad ma, you'n even kno..." He mumbled, his arms around you, "I missed you so bad mama.." He spoke, ended his sentence and train of thought that was occuring to him in this moment. He tilted his head a bit, moving it off your head so he could press a soft kiss to your cheek and then your lips.

   "I missed you too, Sha." You told him once he had seperated himself from your lips. He was drawn to them like a magnet, it was addicting to him. He couldnt help the feeling he felt whenever your lips connected with his.

   "You know I love you, right?" You asked him, giving him a smile, one that he adored. You wanted him to know you loved him, he deserved to know.

   "Yea, baby, I know" He said, looking you in the eyes and observing the way the faint and dim lighting of your room made your skin glow in an etheral way. It was like you were an angel sent to him from above. The way he was so grateful to have you in his life that he even believed you were otherworldly, there was no way you were actually real, but you always proved him otherwise. You were so real, despite seeming so unreal, it scared him. How could he possibly think you were real, you were beyond perfect in his eyes. He wondered why you even loved him in the first place. If he were you, he wouldnt have stayed that long.

   One thing that he failed to realize was that you saw him in the same light he saw you. You two basked in the same light, despite living totally different lives. In the end, you two were united, connected even.

   "You finna love me forever?" He asked you, breaking the silence once again, he loves doing that it seems. "Yea of course" You told him without a second thought, not missing a beat. You were so unapologetically kind and every other uplifting word out there in the world. There were so many words he could use to describe you, and yet there never seemed to be enough.

   He laughed a bit at your quick answer, oh the way he loved you. "You aint even hesitate," He said, smiling at you, before pressing another kiss to the side of your head. This was the gentle love you had heard about your entire life, the sweet fairytales you would hear as a kid, the thing you desired mostly, and here it all was, incorporated into a man who looked to carry everything besides that.

   His comment made you smile, every word that came out of his mouth held so much meaning and significance. Every single announcement of love he made to you carried more than you could ever imagine.

   Sha looked at you for a while longer before resting his head atop of yours once again, letting his eyes close. He was comforted by the fact that you were here, actually here and with him. He hoped it would stay this way forever, your love being the only thing he needed in this treatcherous world he risided in.

    You were his calm before the storm, and the calm after. You were the peace after the high tides and storm, the sun even. And like a sailor, he would face those waves through and through, despite all the hardships. He would always look forward to the sun that would shine upon him after, with you being the sun that provided him with all the warmth he needed and deeply desired after a long cold day.

1111 words.

A/N: WOOHOO! IM BACK😝 (i say this everytime and unfortunately leave for months after)