L.O.V.E

Harmony's Nightmare

I Walk

I sprint

I run

Faster .... & Faster

The red marks , the purple scars , The blue bruises that cover my hopeless body

The pain that runs through my veins as I lay my aching head against the wall.

My blood that travels through this hallway ,

My blood that stains my comforter.

My blood that runs down these walls.

The tears that stream down my face.

The screams that leave my mouth

The broken glasses that trail the kitchen.

The wine that covers the island

The food that covers the kitchen

The word love that leaves my lying mouth.

"Goodmorning Baby" Joseph said

"Goodmorning" I said

"Did you cook" he said

"Yes , I did" I said

"Good girl" he said kissing me

"Look , I might be a little late tonight" so have my food on the table already and have this house clean.

I just nodded

"Harmony I'm talking to you" he said with base in his voice

"I heard you " I said sitting on the bed

"Well answer to me when I speak to you" he said

"Now what did I say do" he said

"Have you food ready and clean up" I replied softly

"Okay now pick your head up , stop looking dumb" he said

I lifted my head and all my scars showed

"And put some makeup on , you look horrible" he said

"You made me look horrible" I said softly

"I didn't ask you who the hell did it. I told you to put on some makeup. Now go do that" he said

"Okay" I said and went to the bathroom and looked myself in the mirror

"Harmony , I'm finna go ... I love you" he said

I just looked at him as he had me looking in his eyes

"I said I love you" he said

"I love you to" I replied

He kissed my forehead and walked out.

I looked at my face and ran my hands down my face. I was to young to be experiencing this. I was only 19. I had no business with Joseph he was 27 and he was a computer technician. I hated him. At first when I met him he was sweet. He always bought me stuff , talked to me when I was down , he was there for me. I somehow end up falling in love with him and when I turned 18 we got together because I was no legal. My mom died from pneumonia when I was about 12 , I was the only child and we moved to where I had no family so I got turned over to the state and when I turned 18 I started living with Joseph. I met him when I was 17 in Wal-Mart and I seen him. He then just came up to me and asked for a number I gave it to him. Then we started talking and age got brought up and I told him. We stopped talking for about a month but then we started back but we were just friends. He used to come get me from school take me out to eat and everything. He came up with the idea of me moving with him when I turned 18 and us being together since I was grown and that's what we did.

At one point of time Joseph got fired and he started drinking and I told him I was gone leave Jim because of his drinking problem . Every since then he's beat me , tortured me for trying to leave him. even if I thought about leaving he'd beat me.

This is not the life I want to live

I put on my makeup and started cleaning up the blood that covered our house from last night. He beat me for not wanting to have sex with him. Then I still ended up being sexed. He beats me for the simplest reasons like for nodding my head instead of speaking to him.

I once had a job at the mall at this store called Pretty In Pink but he made me quit because he said it would be easy for me to run away. Or easy for me to meet someone else and forget him.

It had gotten so bad to the point where he took my phone from me because he felt I was cheating or hiding something.

The only way people contact me is by the house phone and he records those conversations. I just want go get away from this man. It be times like this when he's at work and I just want to leave but I'm scared. He finds me every time and it ends up being bad for me.

I left one time and he beat me with objects like cords and shoes and threw stuff at me. I have plenty bruises on my back especially.

All I want is love. I mean real love , that's exactly what I thought I had. I can honestly say getting out of this relationship is never gonna happen. I used to have hope of me getting out of here but now I don't even hope anymore. I'm lucky to even think about escaping this nigga.

*Ring Ring Ring*

"Hello" I said

"Hey girl" teirra said

" Hey" I said

"Whats wrong with you" she said

"Nothing , why you ask" I said

"I can hear it in your voice" she said

"Everything okay with you and joseph" she said

Her saying his name made my heart race and I was just silent

"Harmony" she said

"Yeah , yeah we're okay .. we're great actually" I said

"You sure" she said

"Yeah" I said softly

"Well I was wondering could you come out with me tonight for drinks , and we could go to your favorite restarant Giovanni's

"Well as good as that sounds teirra. I can't" I said

"Why not harmony" she said sounding mad

"Because me and joseph are doing something today" I lied

"Omg , harmony I supposed to be your bestfriend we never hang out anymore. You and joseph are always doing something together , like w- ... You know what don't worry about , you and joseph have something to do fine"

&& with that being said she hung up

I wanted to tell her , but I couldn't ... I just couldn't I was losing the one close person I had.

Joseph always told me I had nobody everybody I had would be gone and it was only gonna be him and I'm starting to believe that bullshit