L.O.V.E

Harmony . I'm Sorry

I wish I could just make my own decisions

I wish I wouldn't have to listen

To all the hurtful things that come out your mouth and show with appearance

I wish I could just be alone

Have a safe home

Face stinging when I obviously did nothing wrong

I hate you

Why did God create you

Why would he put me in this situation knowing I can't face you

Been going through this for a while now so this is nothing new to me

I wish you change back into the man you used to be

Back into the man that made me smile , back to all the old things I used to see

Now I'm here stuck with you

Telling you I love knowing I don't have any luck with you

Missed out on a good woman and I missed out on a good life sucks for me and sucks for you

"Harmony , baby I have good news .. come down here I have good news" Joseph yelled from downstairs

"What , what is it" I said rushing downstairs and there he was down on one knee

"Harmony , I know I've hurt you and said hurtful things to you but I truly do love you , you have been there for me ... You've loved me and you've delt with me , baby I want you to marry me , will you

I just stood there silent because I didn't want to say yes because I didn't want to marry him and I didn't want to say no because I knew there would be consequences

"Harmony , I'm talking to you ... Marry me" he said

" Harmony" he yelled

I just stood there and cried

"Why you crying huh , you don't wanna marry me huh , you don't sound happy. Everything I do for you and you don't wanna marry me. I bought these flowers and shit " he said throwing them on the floor , I bought these fucking wine , he said breaking the bottle in the floor. He then went to the cabinet and grabbed some vodka and opened it and drunk it straight ,

"You don't love me harmony huh" he said getting closer to me

"You don't love me " he yelled as he hit me right across the face and my body immediately hit the floor.

"You don't love me harmony" he said repeatedly hitting me every time he said

"Okay , Okay " I cried

"What , what okay what" he said grabbing me by my neck pushing me against the wall

"Okay what harmony" he said still choking me

"I'll marry you " I said softly trying to Catch my breath

"I'll marry you" I said again and he let me go and my body fell to the floor and tears rolled down my eyes while blood streamed down my Face unto the floor

"I love you" he said kissing me in my forehead

" I love you" he repeated

" Now clean this shit up" he said and threw the vodka bottle down beside me and it broke.

Then he headed upstairs

I cleaned up every piece of blood. Liquor , wine glass rose pedals ... Everything there was , the house looked spotless , when I got done I wanted to lay on the couch because I didn't want to go up there with joseph.

***

"Get up , come upstairs" he said tapping me

"Its okay baby it's just me" he said responding to when I jumped

He picked me up and carried me upstairs

"Harmony I'm sorry" he said as I turned over to go back to sleep

"Harmony" he said tapping me

"I'm sorry" he said turning over and going to sleep

*****

"Wake up baby , the wedding planner on the way" he said shaking me

"Make sure to put make up on , cover those marks on your face" he said

I got up and went to the bathroom and once again stared at my face and cried

"Hurry up harmony" he said banging on the door which caused me to jump

I took a quick shower

Fluffed my curly hair and put my make up on

I walked out the bathroom with a towel and Joseph wasn't in the room. I went into the closet and was finding something to wear and I found a cute outfit.

I layed it on the bed and joseph busted up in the room. I jumped and held my towel tight.

"Um" he said

Then he came up to me and kissed me on my lips and kissed my neck and wrapped my towel.

"Joseph please , not now" I said

But he continued

"Joseph , joseph .. the wedding planner " I said

He looked at me

"You right" he said

"We'll finish tonight

****

"So what type of theme do you think you want harmony" the lady asked

"Um I don't know" I said plainly

"Okay , I'm sorry but Joseph I'm gonna have to leave because you guys don't even know what you want. The only answers I've been getting is I don't know seems you're marrying yourself" she said

"Noo , no wait ... I'm sorry she's not cooperating , give us a sec " Joseph said

"Alright" she said

Then he grabbed my hand and lead me upstairs

"Look do not embarass me anymore , now you're gonna get down there and plan this wedding you gonna put a fucking smile on your face and act like you love me and if you don't I promise you I will give you he'll when she leaves" he said

***

"So I ask again , what type of theme would you like" she asked

"Um maybe a traditional all white wedding. I want my colors to be white black and red , what do you think honey" I said smiling and looking at Joseph

"That works for me" he said smiling

What harmony wore when the wedding planner came