Summer Desires

Chapter Eight

I dropped the papers on the ground and quickly stood up. I felt like my chest was going to cave in, all while my head was on an endless spin cycle. What did I just read? I ran outside to catch my breath and try to process that I have a sister? Are there more kids? I step on to the porch where Jack and I used to sit out and count the stars together at night.

"Birdy, are you okay?" Alex said, stepping through the doorway.

"No Macho, I am not okay." I cried while grabbing him in for a hug.

"Do you want to talk about it Birdy?" He asked while stroking my hair.

"I have a sister, well a half sister. Also he left the cabin for me to have. He said he will be waiting for me to call when I find this letter." I sobbed.

"Oh Birdy! I am so sorry you are going through all of this right now. What can I do to help you?" He asked.

"Hold me Macho, hold me." I said.

"Of course, Birdy." He said while squeezing me just tight enough.

We walked into the cabin. I grabbed the extra blankets and made a makeshift bed on the floor in front of the fireplace. I went to the closet and found an oversized flannel and used it as pjs. Alex just stripped down to his boxers. I layed down and placed my head on his chest as he ran his fingers through my hair. How could I feel comfortable with him even though it feels like my life is full of heartbreak. Every time life feels okay, something slaps me in the face. Alex has helped me through so much by just being here with me. Do I love him? Do I have feelings for Alex? There is no way I can have feelings for him. I told myself this was a summer thing only. But you cannot help who you fall for, right?

"Macho." I whispered.

"Yes, Birdy." He replied.

"What am I going to do?" I asked.

"We will take it day by day, Okay?" He said.

"What if I can't handle any more heartbreak?" I asked as tears rolled off my cheek and onto his chest.

"Well Birdy, I don't plan to cause any heartbreak if that's what you are implying." He said while lifting my face up to look at me.

"I know Macho. But I have this feeling.." I started to say before he cut me off.

"Birdy, do you remember the first night in your apartment when we were talking? I told you that by the end of the summer I was going to be in love with you and guess what we are three weeks into the summer and I can tell you right now, I am in love with you." He said rubbing the side of my face.

"Oh Macho, we both leave at the end of the summer. I'm moving all the way to Paris. What are we going to do?" I asked, crying harder.

"Hey now Birdy, we will figure it out, okay?" He replied softly.

"I am so sorry. I tried to not love you, I really did." I said burying my face into his chest.

"Wait. Birdy, you love me?" He said with a smile.

"Well... I... okay fine. Yes Alex aka my Macho Man, I love you. Are you happy?" I said in an embarrassed tone.

He leaned over and kissed and then said, "So what now?"

"I don't know, you are the mastermind of this whole thing. You are Macho, I'm just Birdy. My specialty is singing, remember?" I replied, biting my lip.

"Actually I haven't heard you sing in awhile." He grinned at me.

"Well let's change that." I expressed.

I rolled over on top of him and started kissing him while thrusting my hips on his waist. I proceeded to kiss and lick down his neck while he would let out heavy breaths. I then proceeded to lick and kiss down his torso. He slid his boxers off and I then teased him a little bit to get his blood flowing. This will be the first time I have gone down on him, so I was a little nervous. I started by licking the tip and forming what could feel like a kiss on top. I then slipped my mouth over his cock and went down.