Summer Desires

Chapter Four

Everything around me went to a dead stop. What did I just see with my own two eyes... I don't know if I should feel more hurt or if Jason should. I mean at least Carson and I are broke up right? But does that make it hurt any less? Absolutely not, because he still was the first guy I had ever loved at one point and she was who I thought was my best friend. They couldn't do this could they? For how long? Is this why Becca has been weird lately? What is actually unfolding right now...

"How could you do this to me Becca? I mean I would never put it past Carson, but you Bec? What the actual fuck?" I cried.

"I am going to kill him. He is dead!" Yelled Jason.

"Hey, stop. Let's hear them out before fists are thrown." Alex said to Jason.

"Hear them out?! I was sitting at the campsite feeling like the biggest piece of shit for inviting him because of Talia. You Becca made me feel like a dick for inviting him with T here... but it was all a lie right?" Jason said nastily.

"Baby no. Can we just go talk over there please so I can explain?" Becca whispered.

I watched Becca and Jason walk back behind the cove so they could have a conversation. Thank god he took her away from me because I could honestly slap the shit out of her right now. I walked over to Alex and I just buried my head into his chest. How did this perfect day turn into complete shit right now? How could they do this to me and Jason? I felt like my world was on a carousel right now, spinning with no ending to this madness. I heard footsteps walking towards Alex and I so I decided to see who was brave enough to even approach me at this moment. My nerves were coursing through my body at a million miles an hour. I don't even know what I could do next.

"T, can we please talk in private?" Carson spoke.

"Hey man, I don't think she wants to talk to you right now. Why don't you give her some space?" Alex said securely.

"And who are you to speak for my girl like that?" Carson scowled.

I flipped around so quickly and said, "First off dick, who is your girl? Secondly, don't talk to him like that. Lastly you can talk to me with Alex here or don't talk to me at all." I growled.

"Okay well, this is not how I wanted you to find out. I have been trying to find the courage to even face you to explain what was going on in the first place. But you are a hard girl to track down lately." Carson chuckled nervously while running his hand through his hair.

"Am I a hard girl to track down... hmmm it might be because I don't want to fucking be around you Carson. You fucked me up. Do you understand that? You put your hands on me and treated me like I was garbage." I snapped.

"I know what I did was wrong T. I have been beating myself up ever since we split. I wish you would believe me." He said while throwing his head down.

"How long?" I muttered.

"What?" Carson replied while looking back up at me.

"How long have you been fucking Becca?" I barked.

"About three weeks after we split up." He said softly.

I stepped forward and I slapped him so hard across the face. While he stood there holding his face, for a split second I felt like I for once was in control towards him. For once he was the one getting the abuse, the one who gets to feel that pain he put me through. I then proceeded to walk away from him and go towards the direction I could hear Becca and Jason. As I am walking I feel a hand grab mine and I turn so quickly to see who it was. When I was met with Alex's face I just grabbed him and broke down in tears. I know he didn't know the full story and I know that he just met me, but I needed someone in that moment to lean on and to hold me. He held me and he stroked my hair behind my ears and just let me wail out my pain.