Cherry | K.TH

special chapter three

c h e r r y

I heard my nickname being called several times. It was so faint that I could barely hear it. The only thing I can see was the beach, the waves clashing together as the sky shined its bright stars. It felt too unreal to be true. My name is being called again. This time, I could hear it like it was just beside me.

"Cherry." I nodded, looking beside me. But nobody was there. I turned my head to the left, I was still alone. "Cherry, it's time to wake up."

What?

I gasped, opening my eyes. The sunlight hit my eyes, I shut my eyes tightly, covering it with my hand. I slowly open them back and notice Tae with a tray of food. I sighed, relieved that he's still here.

"Are you okay? Feeling pain anywhere?" He asked so gently that I felt something wrong is going to happen. I'm so fucking stupid to even say those words to this beautiful man in front of me.

I raise one hand to touch his face. He still had the questioned look on his handsome face, I just completely ignored what he asked and just enjoyed this moment I have with him. He smiles, rubbing his soft cheek on my palm. Then, he places his hand on mine and squeezing it gently.

"I'm sorry, Taehyung. I'm really sorry," I whispered, my head hanging low as I tried to hide my tears from him. "Maybe I'm not the person you would want to spend the rest of your life with. If I'm being like this in the beginning, how would I become in the future? We should probably get divorce, I'm not a good person for you to be with."

"Y/n, mention separating us one more time, I'm going to do something that I'll regret," He said with a frustrated tone. "I love you and we'll get through this together, even if it takes more than a lifetime. I want to be with you and nobody else. Now stop apologizing, and eat your food."

I look at him and he gave me that look that warned me to not apologize again. I laugh softly, as he put the tray on my lap.

"I've tried to make pancakes but I don't know you would like them, cause they're kind of burnt," He shyly said, pointing the other side of the pancake.

They don't look that burnt, but it is slightly burnt.

"I don't care, you made them and that's the most important." I chuckle, digging into my food. Taehyung sits on the edge of the bed and stares at my face, waiting patiently for me to eat a piece of the pancake. "You're going to make me choke out of laughter if you keep staring."

I take the first bite of the pancake. Once I placed it on my tongue, I knew that it wasn't the best but not the worst. It was good for a beginner, really good actually.

"So?" Tae worriedly asks, "Not bad, right?"

"Not bad at all, Tae." I smile, kissing his lips as he sighs in relief.

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"I'm glad you're alive," Jennie beams, handing me my ordered cup of hot chocolate. I smile, taking a sip. "I think you finally passed the big stage of a married couple."

I put my cup on the table as I look at her for an answer. She shrugs, taking a sip of her coffee as she adjusts her hair to really take a good time for answering.

"You know, I think the baby talk finally went on surface," she starts, tracing the border of her cup with her fingertip. "You guys are probably going to talk about it soon, and you guys have no more secrets to keep."

"Yeah."

I stare at the window, as the rain poured and pedestrians passed by. I put on hand under my jaw, and the other holding my cup, gently swirling it around.

"I think I won't have children," I whisper. This time I didn't feel like I wanted to cry. I was serious about it. I could see on Tae's face that he wasn't ready, he showed it multiple times.

I look up to see Jennie's face and she just stares at me blankly. I sigh, laughing a bit before continuing. "I've seen often online, people saying how some men are either a good husband or a good father, maybe even both. Taehyung is a great husband, but he's really... I mean... I don't think he'll ever be ready to raise children."

"Y/n, are you listening to what you're saying? You've always talked on how much you wanted to have kids."

"I know, but how could I raise kids without a father that didn't want them in the first place? Sure, he'll adapt and try, but will he love them? I'm not sure, Jennie. Tae never brought up this matter to me, and why do you think he didn't?"

"But Y/n..." Jennie's face is miserable to look at. I hope I didn't look like that. I smile at her, knowing I said the most hurtful thing to myself. "What if Tae—"

"We're still young, and we have so much time in front of us. If it's too late for me to have a child, then it is what it is," I say, sipping my drink. "Don't worry, I will always hope that Tae would change his mind. But I will never bring the subject unless he does."

Jennie just nods, and didn't have anything else to say. It was silent between us, enveloping us with the sounds of the cafe and people. I smile at her, telling her it'll will pass but she doesn't think that way.

I sigh, "Jennie, it will be fine. So, have you set the date for your marriage?"

She dryly nods, before putting a smile to make an effort to change subject. "I've been thinking in June, Loren doesn't do shit! I have to prepare everything, that's why we're not talking."

"It feels like it's the first time you guys fought and it's about marriage preparations. Why don't you hire someone?"

She shakes her head. "I want this to be special, not made by someone's ideas. He just barely do shit. Like even fucking Taehyung helped you with the preparations!"

I laugh, nodding in agreement. "I'm not going to lie, it was surprising."

The day went smoothly, we went shopping, eating dinner and just having fun, it was a girl hang out. I was glad that I could finally hang out with Jennie, it's been so long, we barely had time to meet.

The day eventually came to end, when Tae called me saying he'll pick me up to go home, and Jennie decided to sleep at our house to avoid her fiancé.