In the card laid out by fate, how far can you give for your love? How much can you bear? How long can you wait?
Will you still fight? Do you still gamble? Will you bet everything even if will shattered in pieces?
I threw myself in the bed. Finally, after a long day, I'm home. A dorm to be exact. I badly missed my bed.
I'm tired and stressed. I need a rest. A long and peaceful rest.
Being an exchange student is tiring. I've only been here for a week at my new school, but it feels like a year. Too much pressure burning the hell out of me. Being stressed is so overwhelming. I have a fever almost every night. Last night my fever reached 39.6 degrees. I thought I wouldn't be able to go to school today. Luckily, I did. Being absent as of this moment is not part of my dictionary yet.
I heaved a deep sigh. I touched my forehead to check my temperature. My eyes were still hot. And I am right. I already have a fever. Not sure how high it is but I know I'll be spending the whole night having a high fever.
I look outside my window. Fog is slowly getting thick. The temperature is getting cold. Rain will soon to fall. And I don't have enough stock of medicine for my fever. I'm too lazy to get up and buy a medicine.
I suddenly missed my brother. How I wish, Gemini is here.
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I fished out my phone from my pocket. As soon as I unlocked my phone, Beer, my new friends name, appear in my notification bar. I open his message. I smile after reading it.
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Beer is the very first person who approached me in my first day at school. At firsr I was a little bit adamant to talk to him because he has this unapprochable face. He has serious and stern face and a deep voice. I was a little bit scared, but when he stayed with me the whole day, I realized that he is kind. He help me to adjust easily in the academy. He even gave up some of his rest hours after class and toured me to the academy, making sure that I'll be a little bit familiar of my new school.
Beer is a sweet and kind guy. He might have a serious and stern face always, but deep inside he has a soft heart thar only few people, I think, know. And I am lucky to be part of those few people.
I send a thank you message to Beer. I also asked him why he didn't knock instead and handed me the food and medicine he bought. And seems like he is waiting for my message. He answered that he has to fetch his mom at the airport.
I sit up on my bed and slowly stand up. I walk towards the door and open it. I grab the foos and medicines that Beer brought and close the door again.
My head is aching. I'm feeling dizzy and it's a sign that my temperature is rising up. Not a good sign.
I badly need a rest. I need to sleep. But I know I need to eat first and take a medicine. My fever will not go down if I just put him to sleep without taking medicine at all. That's not how it really works.
I did things I have to do slowly. Even though I'm dizzy and my body wants to lie down, I choose to do things I need to do. Eat, take medicine, change clothes.
This is the down side of living alone in a far place. No family, no friends. No one can be by your side when you are sick. All you have is yourself. It's a literal me, myself and I.
I force myself to eat even though I can't see the porridge I'm eating. I just imagine the first time I ate it so I could run out. After that, I drink my medicine and change my clothes. I also threw away the ones I used for food. I make sure my dining table is clean before I dive back to my bed and fully cover myself with the blanket.
Cold is sipping in my body. I can feel it. I can feel my muscles start to shrivel. This is really bad. I might end up in the hospital if I continue to feel like this, which I really don't like.
I uttered a prayer and drift to sleep.
I woke up to the smell of the hospital. The smell of medicine stings my nose. I slowly open my eyes and the first thing that says hi to me is the beeping sound beside me.
As I adjust my vision and my entire system, a realization hit me that I was not in my room but in a hospital room. That's explain strong smell of medicine that awaken me.
I slowly sit up and check myself. I have an IV and an oxygen nose tube. The beeping sound that I heard as soon as I open my eyes is the vital monitor machine beside the hospital bed.
"Am I dreaming? How come I'm here?" I confusedly asked myself.
As far as I remember, I pulled myself to sleep last night. I am not feeling well, so I decided to force myself to sleep and rest. So, how come I am here? How come I am in the hospital? Who brings me here? Unless, of course, I am dreaming.
If this is a dream, what a bad dream it is. I pinch myself to know if I am just dreaming.
"Ouch." I rub my arms fast to ease the pain I cause to myself.
I'm not dreaming. The realization that dive in confused me.
Who bring me here? How did that person find my situation? Did I unconciously call for a help? But sino ang tinawagan ko?
Si Beer?
That's impossible. His number is not on my speed dial.
Did I call Gemini? How come he came fast?
Pond?
If Gem is impossible to here as fast as he can be, Pond is way too impossible also.
