Destiny's Game

Chapter 15

I felt as if cold water had been poured over me at Gem's words.

So, he knew. He knew I was in love with his boyfriend? When did that happen?

I looked down, unsure of how to defend myself. I was caught in the act. No amount of denial would help now. It was Gem who had caught me—my twin.

I wanted to cry. I just wished the ground would swallow me up right now. I felt so embarrassed in front of my brother.

Why did it have to be Pond? Why him? There are so many people in the world—why did it have to be my brother's boyfriend?

I thought this kind of thing only happened in drama series and fictional stories. The scenario of falling for your sibling's lover seemed like a far-off fantasy. I never imagined I would experience it firsthand.

What should I do? Apologize? Beg for forgiveness? Be selfish?

Of course, I couldn't do that. I would never do that to Gemini.

"I'm sorry, Gem." That was all I could manage to say. I couldn't find any other words besides "sorry." "I'm sorry for falling in love with your boyfriend. Don't worry, I'll handle this."

"You should. But I don't agree that you have to deal with it alone."

I forced a sad smile. "Don't worry, Gem. I can handle this on my own."

"I think we need to talk."

Startled, I turned around and saw Pond standing behind me, looking serious and locking eyes with me.

"You got their blessings?" Gem asked Pond.

"Yeah, I actually got it a while ago. What I received today was just their permission and approval," Pond said proudly.

"That's my man!" Gem said with a smile as he stood up and walked over to Pond.

How can he smile in a situation like this? Doesn't he care? Isn't he hurting at all? His brother loves his boyfriend; he should be freaking out.

"Make sure everything is clear before any misunderstandings get out of hand," Gem told Pond.

"I will. Thank you."

"Make him happy, Pond."

"I will, of course."

"Gem." I suddenly stood up. What does he mean? Is he really going to sacrifice his happiness for me? Why? He doesn't have to do this.

Gem looked at me and chuckled. "You know, Phuwin, you should learn to ask questions before jumping to conclusions and letting your imagination run wild."

"Gemini, you don't have to do this."

"Why don't you talk to Pond first? We can discuss this later." Then he turned his back to me and walked away, waving his hand and shaking his head.

"Phuwin." Pond called me.

"Go after Gemini, Pond."

"Why should I?"

"Because he is your boyfriend?"

"And where did you get that idea?"

"Will you stop asking me question, Pond. Go after Gemini. "We have nothing to ta..."

TSUP

POND JUST KISS ME. WHAT THE FUCK!

"POND ARE YOU CR..."

TSUP

"One more word Phu and we might end up on your bed. I am so done of controlling myself when you are this close to me."

"Pond."

Damn it! My mind is buffering.

"Can we have a serious talk?"

""We don't have anything to discuss. You and my brother are..."

Pond kiss me again. But this time, it's not a quick kiss but a long, warm and warning kiss.

I push Pond away from me and step back. I control myself from holding my lips coz honestly, I like that kiss and Pond lips was so soft.

"Can you please calm down Phu and talk to me?"

"Calm down? How can I?" He just kissed me, and I fucking enjoyed it. That kiss ignited everything inside me. I'm at a point where I can barely control myself. No, I can still hold back, but my selfish instincts are overpowering my rational thoughts. My heart is winning over my mind.

"How can I Pond? You just kissed me. You just kiss your boyfriend brother."

"Phuwin."

"Shut up Pond!" I wiped my tears."Maybe allowing myself to be selfish is my only choice at this point. It could even improve things in the future. I won't be in this house much longer, anyway. No matter what happens today, I know I can leave it all behind once I'm in the U.S.

"Pond, you have no idea how terrible I feel about myself right now. Gem just dropped a bomb—he knows I have feelings for you. I can't deny it; Gem caught me red-handed. Your boyfriend saw everything. You don't understand how much I wish I could just disappear right now."

"Pond, I like you. No. I fucking love you and I want to be selfish. But I know I can't. "Because of Gem, I can't bear to hurt him. That's something I simply won't do. Hurting him isn't even in my vocabulary. That's why I've decided to stay in the U.S. for as long as I can. As long as I haven't forgotten you, I'll remain there."

"Do you know how hard this is for me right now? I desperately want to be selfish, but I'm holding back. Why? Because I don't want to hurt Gem. Pond, why did it have to be my brother? Why can't it be someone else? Why not me?""

"Phuwin.."

"Let me finish, Pond." I wiped my tears again. Damn it. I never meant to cry in front of him, but I can't contain my emotions right now. I had planned to release them gradually, but Pond's kiss threw me off completely.

""I feel terrible right now. I don't know what face I'll show to you and Gem after this. But since we're here, then so be it.""

I stared directly into Pond's eyes, clenched my fist, and let out a deep sigh.

"I've liked you since seventh grade, keeping it hidden because I didn't want to risk our friendship. I tried to suppress my feelings, loving you in silence. But then everything turned upside down—you fell in love. It felt like fate was toying with me, as you fell for my brother, and he, in turn, fell for you too. It's like a twisted game I never wanted to play."

""Phuwin, how far along are you with your conclusions?"?"

""Please, Pond. Let me finish, okay? I need to get everything out. I want to release all these feelings so I can start moving on. I'm exhausted from being stuck where I am right now."

Pond just shook his head and stepped closer, closing the distance between us. He kissed me.

I tried to clear my head. My mind tried to reason out with my heart, but it became useless as soon as Pond shoved his tongue inside my mouth to open it. He kissed me deep and it's asking for an answer.

And I did. I response to his kiss.