blind love

suffering

Goddesty

Its been two days since I been out of jail and being surrounded by my kids is the only thing I was worried about besides Tristan didn't want me to leave them any way but I hate the fact he is always out
"Mommy daddy on the phone"Paris said handing over the phone
"Hey baby"
"Wassup ma what y'all doing"
"Nothing we laying down watching frozen I miss you baby"
"I miss you too ma ayy but guess what I ran into ya mom she was tryna buy some coke off my dude"
"Tristan tell all ya niggas don't sell SHIT to my fucking mother she is pregnant"
"I'm already ahead of you bae I told all of them nd check this out word is that crystal up and left the state"
"So that bitch snitched on me"
"What you tryna do baby"
"If I'm going down she is to they can't find the gun so they don't have any evidence that I shot her"
"Igh baby I will be home in the next hour y'all get ready"
He hung up to leave me thinking about what he is up to as I was getting up I heard the door bell ring
"Who could this be" I said walking down the stairs
"Get dressed now grandma in the hospital" destiny said running back to her car.
I ran up stairs so fast to put on my shoes I didn't have time to change so I left my Pooh bear pajamas on got the kids there shoes on and ran out the door.
"Danielle jackson" I said to the receptionist
I was already out of breath running with Jr in my arms and this lady was taking her time to give me the room number
"252"the lady said
"Come on y'all"I said to the twins heading to the room
When I got to the room nurses was outside along with a few other people I walked up to destiny and keke since they was the only ones I knew
"Whats wrong with grandma"I said desperately
Destiny held her arms out waiting for me to hand over Jr without a word I gave him up
"Grandma wants to see you"keke said
I walked in the room and broke down to tears when I saw all the wire's on her,her face looked beaten in like someone repeatedly hit her and she had bruises all over her body
"Baby doll come here"my grandma barley said
"Who did this to you grandma what happened"
"I thought she just wanted to talk, lord where did I go wrong with her I gave her the same amount of love I gave y'all"
"Grandma what happened who"
"Your cousin came by and she kept going on about how her love died and she was broken I went to give her a hug and she pushed me down she hit me over and over again she said I always loved you more"
I broke down into tears I knew exactly who she was talking about but why would crystal hurt her own grandmother her BLOOD when nobody else wanted her my grandmother took all of us without asking anyone for shit"
"Baby I don't want you to get even promise me whatever happens know what I taught you that family is the most important thing never turn your back on family goddesty, do you promise me?"
"I promise grandma"
I couldn't help the tears that we're pouring on my face my grandma the women that taught me everything she didn't deserve this.
"Tell my grand babies I love them and give them a kiss for me"she said faintly
"I will grandma"i said sniffing my nose after
(Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep)
"GRANDMA! GRANDMA PLEASE NO"
Just then 4 nurses ran in trying to revive her back to life they pushed me out the room and closed the door
"I'm sorry grandma" I said to myself
My heart was broken the only women in this world that gave a damn about me was gone she was only 70 years old.
Keke pulled me into a hug and we started crying together.
"Crystal has to pay for this shit that bitch lost her mind"keke said to me
"She not blood and she not family because our grandma didn't raise to hurt our loved ones it was supposed to be us four sticking together"
"excuse me"the nurse said
We all turned our attention towards her.
"I'm so sorry for your loss,her heart was weak and she couldn't take the pain so her body gave up,again I'm sorry for your loss"with that being said she then walked away
Too much stuff was going on at once and I didn't know how to handle it so many things was running through my mind .
"BABY"
It was Tristan running down the hallway with open arms I ran into them and cried my eyes out he just held me tighter and tighter repeating I'm so sorry baby.
After Tristan got done talking to keke and destiny he picked me up and walked out hospital,
"Destiny is going to take Jr for a few days and the twins are staying with keke and gia"Tristan said putting me in the car.
He went to the trunk and took him a shirt out to put on since I messed up his white T he had on with snot and tears, my eyes was puffy and my face was completely red but that wasn't the only thing that was red because my eyes we're to I want blood and I want justice for my grandmother I killed the wrong person in that house that day and for my mistake my grandma is dead.
"Don't worry baby she a dead women walking"Tristan said getting into the car
We pulled up in the driveway and headed for the house Tristan went upstairs to run me a hot bath while I took a pill to help me sleep.
I sat down in the bath and relaxed as Tristan washed me up I must have drifeted of to sleep because I woke up in the bed with only my boy shorts and bra on.
"Wassup ma you feel better"Tristan said walking into the room
"No I will feel better when that bitch is dead"
"Calm down I'm making calls baby as long as she on this earth I'm goin find her,my connects don't never let me down"
I layed back in the bed thinking about everything, I miss my kids but with everything going on they don't need to be around this.
"Talk to me"Tristan said picking up the phone
"I told you don't give her SHIT nigga you fired,go to the trap hand all your bags to tez nigga and you don't get ya cut this month"he said into the phone
When he hung up he started putting his clothes on so I jumped up and did the same
"Where you going shawty"Tristan said to me
"With you shit I ain't staying in the house"
"Heads up then ya mama should be having the baby soon this fuck nigga sold her some crack but don't worry bae I fired him"
"Good I should slap him"
"You can bae as soon as we get to the trap house"
We walked out the house and headed for the car.
We pulled up in this nice house by the water in long island Tristan must have seen my face because he grabbed my hand I was scared to walk in the house especially since crack feins, potheads, and coke users come to get there stuff from here.
When you walk in there is two couches on your left naked women and stackes of money on your right
I looked up at Tristan who already knew what I was thinking
"Don't worry baby they only naked so them bitches can't steal nothing"
He lead me to the back where a room where a bunch of men we're. when you walk in the smoke hit you like a slap in the face it was at least 5 five blunts in rotation.
Tristan dapped everyone up and took a seat, I followed and took a seat on his lap.
"Did Marcus get here yet"Tristan asked to tez
Tez didn't have a chance to respond when in walked this tall but scrawny boy he looked decent not your average drug dealer though.
"There he go baby smack that nigga" Tristan said to me
The boy looked at me with sorrow
"No bae"
Tristan pushed me off his lap got his gun out and pistol whipped the boy, he instantly dropped to the floor
"Now didn't I tell you not to sell no dope to my mama,not only that she pregnant fool"Tristan spat
I don't know why Tristan looked at my mom as a mother shit I don't even look at her as a mother
"I'm sorry please I need this job I have a 6 month old and a 6 year old"
I instantly thought about my kids and how would I have felt
"Tristan let him go"I yelled
Tristan was gripping his neck choking the life out of the kid
"TRISTAN"I yelled again
Tristan let the boy neck go and turned around to face me
"I'm doing business here the lil nigga need to know that shit he did is not okay"Tristan said to me
"Okay you made your point let him go now"
"Say sorry to my lady"Tristan said before kicking him
The boy got up approached me and cleared his throat
"I'm sorry for giving your mother drugs while she was pregnant"
"How old are you"I asked the boy
"Eighteen"
"I will make my husband give you your job back just because I know what it's like having to support 2 kids at a young age, but please don't let this SHIT happen again because next time I won't be hear to save ya ass"
"Thank you so much" he responded
"You lucky my lady was here because this conversation would of went totally opposite"Tristan said handing the boy one of the book bags From off the floor.
When he was gone Tristan came back to the seat he was at
"Damn you let ya girl boss you around playa"one of the men said laughing
"Hahaha what what the fuck so funny King At least I got a women,how about you get ya fat ass up and do some work"Tristan spat
"Hey I do enough work around here"
While king and Tristan we're going back and forth one on the men received a call that he stepped out to take.when he returned he looked worried but surprised
"Tristan let me halla at you real quick"the man said
Tristan tapped my leg informing me to get up,he disappeared into the hallway we're the man was
"Tez what's that about"I asked
"I don't know but I will found out"he replied
It was over five minutes Tristan was gone until he walked in the room
"Lets go bae,ayy tez go pack heavey king you stay here but Diamond and Lucky y'all coming with me so go pack"Tristan said
"Igh but but we're we going boss"one of the two men said
"To Charlotte nc we caught ourselves a fish"Tristan said smiling at me
I already knew what was happening and I was ready to kill this bitch
"I always wanted to go to north Carolina"I said smiling
I grabbed Tristans hand and we walked out the house