blind love

a new start

Goddesty (same night)
I have been giving it alot of thought. and maybe I shouldn't kill my cousin,she not worth the shit I have three kids....well now four kids to think about and they need me..but ain't shit stopping me from beating her ass real quick. I figured I pay her a visit tonight when Tristen and Amanda go to sleep.
"Daddy you have to read to me now"Amanda said running out the bathroom
"Well we didn't bring any books sweetheart"I politely butted in
"Thats okay I quess I will have to fall asleep watching tv then"she said swaying back and forth trying to look sad.
"Now I know for a fact your mom doesn't let you do that but....I will let you only if it's our secret"Tristan said to her
"DEAL"She screamed jumping up and down holding her pinky out
The pinky swore and Tristan turned the tv on while Amanda got under the covers.
"Dang baby I know Paris going to be aesthetic that she got a sister"tristen said laying down next to me
"Yea baby I just miss them so much,when whatever her name is comes to get Amanda let's go home"
He laughed a little knowing damn well I knew her name.
"Okay baby I guess I can send for Amanda"he said wrapping me in his arms.
It was going on one oclock and Tristen and Amanda finally went to sleep.
I moved tristen arm and eased my way out the bed, i put on my sweats one of tristen wife beaters and one of his sweaters, grabbed the keys and headed out the door.

Crystal
Tony had to work late and the kids spent the weekend with their grandma,I hate when I have to be in this big house by myself I feel so lonely.
I went downstairs to get me some cookies and milk.
"Lord please don't let this go straight to my thighs"I said taking my cookie out the milk putting it in my mouth
"Mmmmmmm"I said out loud In complete pleasure
(Ding doing)
"Shit! why did Tony let Sidney go home" I sat the pate and cup on the stand then walked to the door.
I pulled the door back and my heart must have jumped out my chest and ran away cause I felt lifeless and numb,I was in complete and utter shock.
"Surprise bitch"she said to me pushing me out the way to come in.

Goddess
I pushed passed the bitch into the house,shit was looking lovely inside here big ass twin stair case and beautiful kitchen was all i could see from where i was standing.but I didn't have time to think about that,I came here to get justice for my grandmother.
"You know Crys I really love you"I said smiling,I felt crazy for a moment but but the bitch deserve everything she gonna get tonight."why you had to do that to my gramdma?"I asked shaking uncontrollably.
"She was my grandmother to goddess"
"BITCH SHE TOOK US IN,SHE CLOTHED US SHE MADE SHURE OUR BELLY WAS FULL BEFORE WE WENT TO SLEEP!"I spat
"I feel very badly"she said with her head held down"if I could take it all back I would"
"MY GRANDMOTHER IS DEAD!" I screamed."and you up in here with some baller,bet that nigga don't know you killed your own fucking grandmother".
when I looked back at her there was a river of tears surrounding her face, she looked in my eyes with so much hurt and sorrow. It was at that moment I knew.
"You ain't even know you killed her did you?"I asked with hatred
"No!"she sobbed, she dropped to the ground and started praying, but her tears wouldn't let up any minute our asses was goin be standing in a pond if she didn't stop crying.
"I'm soo sorry grandma please forgive me, I repent grandma please, I didn't mean to"she kept saying it over and over rocking back in forth.
"My grandmother is gone because of you! You don't deserve shit you got right now, and oh before I whoop yo ass,before MY grandmother died she told me to tell you that she loves you and she sorry she failed you"I laughed so hard "isn't that funny crys".
"What the fuck is so funny about it goddess"she yelled
"BECAUSE BITCH!,you failed her.....you are EVERYTHING she raised us not to be"I looked down at her "now imma whoop yo ass like my grandma should have done"
I instantly grabbed her by her hair and slammed it to the floor,kicking and stomping on her face and body,the bitvh wasn't worth me messing up my nails. I finally let go and gave her a chance yo get up so I can tag that ass again......but she just laid there crying.
"Come on goddess beat me again"she wiped the blood that was coming from her nose and lip."COME ON!"she yelled.
"Get up and fight me like a woman"I said to her
"NO! My grandma was to helpless to fight back.....so I deserve this"
"BITCH NOBODY PITTYS YOU"I said back slapping her in the face.
Jut when I was going back at her this tall caramel fine ass nigga stopped me.
"What the fuck are you doing to my girl"he said pushing me into the wall
"If you know who my husband is, then you would get ya fucking hands off of me"I said pushing his hands off my neck.
"Stop it Tony.....come on goddess, finish me"crystal weakly said.
The man went and helped crystal up to her feet.
"I killed my grandma Tony, SHE'S DEAD!"crystal said crying into his chest.
She could barely keep her balance so he picked her up and turned towards me.
"Who the fuck are you"he said with so much anger in his eyes
"Mrs.Jackson BITCH"I said walking out the house.
I got in the car and drove back to the hotel feeling a little accomplished, but something in me just wouldn't let me feel satisfied.I walked in the room and looked to the bed to see both Tristan and Amanda sound asleep, gosh she look so much like him, I stripped from my clothes took a shower, slipped on one of Tristans shirts got in the bed and hugged tristen from behind.
"Mommy will see y'all soon babies"was the last thing I said before I drifted off to sleep.