blind love

your past

GODDESTY

I woke this morning to noone next to me. AGAIN!.
I got out the bed called room service ordered breakfast and started packing my clothes to go home.
If Tristan think I'm staying in this hotel another night while he go out and party he has another thing coming.
I'm going home to my kids they miss me and I'm becoming depressed without them, when I heard Paris cry for me and her daddy lastnight it broke my heart, so I'm leaving.
I was putting my bags on the floor when there was a knock on the door.
"Room service"
I opened the door tipped the lady and closed it back.
I sat on the bed eating my food watching tv awaiting for tristen to come.
(2 hours later)
"Wassup baby"tristen said coming into the room
"I'm leaving you can stay here and have fun we was supposed to be here for a job but you doing everything else"I said aggravated
"Baby I'm getting the plan set up"
"NO TRISTAN! The only the only thing you getting is your dick wet, I'M TIRED OF YOU FUCKING CHEATING ON ME!" I screamed in his face
"I just went to dude house last night baby I saw crystal she looked me in my eyes"
"Man Fuck you and that bitch, let me ask you a question Tristan since we been out here when was the last time you talked to MY kids!"
"What that supposed to mean they my kids to goddess"
"You only act like it when you want to, and guess what Paris said last night, how come when we talk daddy don't want to talk to me how come y'all not coming back for us and mostly how come daddy don't want to talk to me no more, she miss her fucking daddy Tristan and you didn't even pick up the phone to call your fucking daughter"
"I know and I'm sorry"he said with his head held down
"Sorry don't cut it Tristan, I'm going home to my kids"
"Man you the fucking reason we came out here"
"And what was the point of the shit"I said pushing his face "we been here for 2 fucking weeks, 2 weeks Tristan and what else have you done but look the bitch in her face"
I grabbed my bags heading out the door when there was a woman with a little girl standing there.

Tristan
Bubbles from the club 3 nights ago was standing right in front of goddess. Y'all I have a feeling this is not going to end to well, I knew bubbles from new York when she was eighteen or so we uses to Fuck around and stuff she was the one that made a nigga believe love was true. She wasn't like the other hoes I fucked with. she really had dreams of being someone and since we was the same age we talked about having a future until she left and I never heard from her again until I saw her in the strip club the other night.
"Can we help you"goddess said breaking the silence
"My name is Basily and this here is Amanda" she said looking down at the little girl. "Tristan, this is your daughter".
I instantly felt sick to my stomach, is she really my daughter. Is that the reason she left new york.
" SAY SOMETHING TRISTAN!. IS THIS TRUE"?
"Baby I don't know"I said to goddess. I turned to bubbles."what you mean this my daughter,how did you even know where I'm staying".
"I asked the front desk, I know this is a shock but may we come in and talk"
"Yes you damn shure can come in"goddess said walking to grab her bags.
"Where are you going goddess"I yelled after her. "Stay right here B let me calm her down" I told bubbles running out the door.
When I finally caught up to goddess she had nothing but pitty and worry in her eyes.
"Baby listen to me, I love you, I love our kids, and I love my family baby listen to me when I tell you that you don't have to worry about me leaving you ma I'm not going no where"
"Who is she Tristan?"
"Baby please come back inside with me so we can figure this out together"
"You didn't answer my question! Who is she Tristan"she said raising her voice this time.
"She a girl I uses to kick it with, baby this was before you"
Without a word she walked back to the room leaving her bags in the hall for me to carry.
When I got back to the room they was already going at it.
"Listen I don't want SHIT from either of you I have been doing it on my fucking own for 3 going on 4 years I just thought it would be right for my princess to know her father and for her father to know he has a daughter"
"Oh bitch he has a daughter her name is Paris Desire Jackson"
"Please excuse your self I didn't call you out your name so I advice you to do the same now I'm trying to be respectful"
I started to talk cutting goddess off in her speech
"You just up and left B, now how do I know she really mine"
"Because I was the only person that was there for you when you ain't have shit! I loved you and I gave you my virginity, all through high school I was your ONLY friend we grew a bond".
"AND YOU LEFT ME B!"
"Because I got pregnant, I didn't want my child around those drugs and stuff,I knew you wasnt ready to give up the game because you was finally getting some money to support us"
"Damn B, I got a wife and a family how you going just spring this on me"
"Listen I didn't know about any of that, I saw you at the club the other night and I been debating about it ever since"
"Thats fucked up B to both of us"I said walking to the little girl.
I stooped to her level and she smiled with the biggest grin, it scared me a lil I felt like I was looking in a mirror.
"Hey baby girl"
"Hi"she said shyly
"How old are you"
"I'm ummm 3 BUT I will be 4 on ummmm February 13"
"Get out of here"I said laughing
"Why"she responded
"Oh no baby I didn't mean it literally, it's just and expression"
"Oh okay"she said picking her head back up
"My birthday is the same day as yours"
"Really"she said with eyes big a bubbles
"Yea but I will be turning 22"
"Wooooow that's a lot of numbers from 4"
I laughed at her thinking
"yea it is"
I stood up to walk over to goddess who looked mad as ever, I know she saw my hurt, I mean basily was my high school love I thought she would be the one I would marry but when she left I had no choice but to forget about her I couldn't look like no sucker crying infront of my homies.
"Well this is my wife goddessty"
"Thats a pretty name"Amanda said
"Thanks you have a pretty name too"goddess responded
The room was a awkward silence until goddess spoke.
"It was nice to meet you Amanda but I have to go home to my babies" she finished her sentence looking up at me."so y'all can catch up".
"You have babies"
"Yes I do, well only one of them is really a baby the other two are toddlers,but they are all my babies"
Goddess grabbed her bags and walked out the room, I know she wants me to chase her.... but this time, im not doing that to my daughter she deserves to know her father.
"Wow your girl is something else"bubbles said
"Yea I know"I said smiling
Me and bubbles sat in the room talking for about 3 hours while Amanda watched tv, it's crazy how much we still have in common. I mean I can't be completely mad at her, all she wanted to do was give my daughter a better life. I received a text from goddess, I knew she would text or call I just didn't think she would take that long to do it.

WIFE : REALLY TRISTEN!

Me:you bet not get on that fucking plane goddesty

WIFE :I'm waiting for it now,have fun with your new family I would be shure to tell your kids!

I looked at the message for a minute and finally responded

ME:tell them what? that they have a big sister? Or some fuck SHIT! DAMN GODDESS I HATE WHEN YOU ACT THIS WAY! I need my wife here please I want to figure this out with and not without you.

WIFE:baby you have a daughter and she looks just like you........

Me:AND!......now Paris has someone to play with other than londen. Baby this don't change the way I feel about you Or our kids ALL THREE OF THEM!

WIFE:okay baby I'll come back but just know I'm not crazy but I'm crazy about you and I will kill you and any bitch that try and take you from me.

Me:I think you already did baby that's why we here now lol....but you don't have to worry about that because my home is with you, I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH WIFEY.

"I love you more hubby"goddess said walking in the room
"I thought you was at the air port baby"I said grinning like a fat kid at a chocolate store
"no I was in tez suite, you think I'm leaving this state without you"
I walked over and gave goddess a kiss.
"Well we really should get going"
"No wait I want to spend more time with her" I said eagerly
"Well y'all can spend the whole day tomorrow I will drop her off, we been here for hours and I have work tonight"
"Okay well let me take her now and you come get her when you get off tomorrow night"
"Huh? tristen that's too much,she is only used to me and her babysitter"
"Well let's let her decide"goddess said walking over to Amanda."sweetheart, would you like to stay here with us while your mommy goes to work"
She looked up with her big brown eyes "can I mommie"
"Only if you Want to baby,you want to spend time with your daddy? "
"Yes mama pleaseeeeeee"she said clinging to bubbles leg.
"Okay hunny but just to make shure I won't see until Sunday morning,is that okay or do you want me to come sooner"
"Whats today mommy"
"Today is Friday but I will pick you Saturday night while your sleeping"
"Okay mommy,bye I love you"
"Wait no hug"
Amanda gave her a big hug and a kiss and ran back in front of the tv.
"Don't worry about clothes we will take her shopping tomorrow morning"I said
"Okay well I get off at 2am so I will be here around 2:30am to get her,and she loves when you sing her to sleep or read a book after bath it always puts her right to sleep, and if she gets fussy count ten with her and tell her to breath"she started walking out the door. "Oh and make sure....."
"Blah blah blah blah blah"I said cutting her off "I do have a daughter,so it should be easy"
She started walking down the hall to the elevator.
"B" I called after her
"Yea"
"Thank you for giving me a chance"
"I believe in you, I always have and I always will"without another word she walked into the elevator.
I closed the door and walked over to goddess and Amanda, they was laying down watching some show with a bald head little boy in a yellow shirt.I layed down too, putting Amanda in the middle.
"Well I guess we have four kids now"goddess said smiling at me.
I didn't say anything but smiled back.maybe the plan for coming out here wasnt to kill crystal,But to meet my daughter.