blind love

BETRAYAL

(Same night)

Ttisten

"Did she say when we can see her again"goddess said walking towards me.
"Um nah I told her I'll hit her up"I said leading goddess back in the loby.
Did she see what me and B just did?.nah she wouldn't be that calm about it,...but damn I got to make sure.
"Um bae"
"Yes"she said laying her head on my arm
"how long was you standing there?"
"I saw tristen"
The elevator ride and walk back to the room was silent.
"But baby....you don't wanna talk about it"
"Nope"she said wrapping her arms around me.
GODDESTY IS COOL ABOUT ME KISSING ON ANOTHER GIRL?NAH,she gonna kill me in my sleep or something. Fuck that! I turned on the tv and watched a game while goddess slept.

Tony
i walked In the hospital room to crystal sleeping I walked to the bed and kissed her for head
"Baby"crystal said
"Go back to sleep baby I didn't mean to wake you"
She sat up.
"No I was actually waiting to see if you was going to come back"she said with her head down
"Of course, I just needed to clear my head"
"I-I'm sor..."
I put my finger over her lip.
"Sorry for what?you said you didn't know you was pregnant and I shouldn't have blew up on you like that"
She moved over in the bed so I could lay down.
"Nah baby imma sleep on the couch"I said not wanting to hurt her
"I need you to hold me"she said in a low voice.
I took off my shoes and got in the bed and wrapped my arms around her,she snuggled up to me and rested her head on my chest.
"I love you Tony"
"I love you more"
She instantly fell asleep leaving me to stare at her beauty.

Goddess
"All aboard flight to new York"the loudspeaker said
We walked to the boarding area.
"Enjoy your flight"the lady said handing back the boarding pass
"Baby I can't wait to get home and lay with you and my kids"Tristan said
"Yea me too"I replied not wanting to talk.
Honestly I just want my kids. last night when I saw Tristan kiss Bubbles or whatever her name is my life and my marriage came crumbling down and I never felt like a woman could permanently replace me until I met her. I can't even look tristen in his eyes without tearing up, I can't imagine my life without out him.
"Baby you okay?"tristen said snapping me out of my thoughts.
"Yea I'm fine"I said taking my seat on the flight.
4 hours later
"Home sweet Home"tristen said dropping our bags.
"I want my pizza"Paris said running in the house with London.
Tristen made the kids food while I unpacked the their clothes.
"LONDAN DESARIE JACKSON!"I yelled from the laundry room
"Yes mama"
"Look at your shoes,your brand new shoes that your father bought before we left"
They had dirt smudges all over them creases in them like he been on his tippy toes.
"I was playing".
"Its okay baby go back and eat".
Note to self. Never leave my kids with those bitches again. Ugh why did tristen have to kiss that bit-..that fucking person!
"Baby come lay down with us"tristen said holding Jr.
"Okay I will" NOT! I don't want to be near him,he can stay downstairs with the twins and I can take Jr and bond with him. Every time I look at him I just want to punch him in the face....and I absolutely do not know why I wasn't mad when they kissed.
"Baby"tristen said grabbing me from behind.
"Tristen I just want to put all the stuff away so I can go upstairs" I tried move out his grip but he pulled me back.
"Now are you gonna talk to me about this or let it eat you up"he whispered into my ear running chills through my body.
But I didn't respond I just tried to walk away again.
"Goddessty is we really playing this game"he said pulling me back once again.
"WHAT GAME TRISTEN! THE KISS ANOTHER BIT-"he coverd my mouth,pushed me in the laundry room and closed the door.
"Yo keep ya fucking voice down my kids right there in the living room!"he said backing me into the washing machine.
"Move tristen! I can't believe you, after you sung me that I put that ring on your finger for a reason bullshit and then kiss that bitch?"
" Ay My baby mama ain't no bitch"he said putting his finger in my face."nah don't let it slip out ya mouth again".
Tears rushed down my face.
"If you love her so much just be with her.....BE WITH HER TRISTEN"I couldn't help my emotions and it was written all over my face.
He just simply let me go and backed away to to the door.
"You know what,maybe I will".
I couldn't believe my ears
"What?"I asked dropping to the floor.
I felt like my whole world came crashing down.
"You want me to leave right?" He asked sternly.
Is that a fucking trick question "do you love her?"I said ignoring his question.
"Goddess you don't want me to answer that"he said looking away.
I got up from off the ground and walked to him.
"Now I'm going to ask you again. Tristan dontarios Jackson do you love her?"
"Yes and ain't shit changing that"he said looking me directly in my eyes.
"Then why is this ring on my finger?"I said taking it off.
"Because I love you too"I pushed passed him and walked out the room.
"You can just have this shit back"I said throwing the ring at him.
He picked it up."goddess jus-"
"Get out my house"I said pointing to the door.
"Goddesty listen"
"Just please get out tristen please"I can't take no more. I was already hurt about him kissing her but defending her. OVER ME!
Tristan walked to the living room to put his shoes on.
"Daddy where you going I go too?"Paris said looking for her shoes.
He picked her up."daddy gotta leave for a few days he going to be back".
Her eyes started to form tears she really truly is a daddys girl."no daddy you just got BACK".
"I know baby but I just have to go"he said looking at me.
She wiggled out of his arms and ran to me."mommy make daddy stay with us".
"Baby it's going to be okay we can stay up and watch movies and I get to have you and your brothers to myself".
Tristen looked at me like did I really just say that but I wanted to rub it in that he has to leave.
"NO NO NO NO NO NO NO"Paris stomped around making Jr cry.
"PARIS DESIRE JACKSON! What has gotten into you"I said picking up Jr.
"Come here daddy's girl"Tristan said sitting down on the couch.
She walked over and snuggled into his lap.
"Now daddy has to go BUT. He loves you very much and I promise will be back"
She started to cry again.
"Just stay trist"I said regretting every word but I rather me be hurt than my daughter to be crying all night.
"Daddy going stay baby"
"Yay"Paris said hopping up in down.
I walked upstairs with Jr,checked on London and went to my room.
"Did you miss mommy?"I said laying Jr on the bed."cause mommy misses you very much"I kissed him all over his little face making him smile.
"Goddess"tristen said walking into the room.
"I don't wanna hear shit from you"I said not looking his way.
He closed the door."why the fuck you wait until we come home to get mad when we could have talked about it right there in the hotel!"
"What was their to talk about you fucking kissed her and you miss her now don't tell me you don't because it was written all over ya fucking face".
"Okay but I'm married to you goddess the girl left me when I was 18 my first fucking love! And then I met you and fell in love all over again"
"You can save all that shit tristen because I know you"
"Your right goddess"he said sitting on the bed."I'm still in love with her and my love for her will never fade, she the one that taught me how to love. when I didn't even know I could love, she helped me get over my depression of being abandoned. Do you know how that feel goddess? To know that your mother just left you in a hospital and never looked back. SHE DIDN'T EVEN FUCKING NAME ME! And basily helped me through all of that. So forgive me for still being in love with my first love".
"Then be with her tristen I'm not stopping you"please don't go tristen I want you to stay.
He got off the bed."you know what I will. fuck this marriage and fuck your ungrateful ass".
Did he just say that to me.
I hopped off the bed and jumped in his face."UNGRATEFUL? I put with your fucking shit your cheating ass your fucking lying ass. You you....I FUCKING HATE YOU TRISTEN!"
He pushed me onto the floor "and I hate your fucking ass too you a immature little ass fucking bitch!"
His words slapped me in the face as fast as they we're coming out of his mouth."I'm fucking leaving"he said unlocking the safe.
He took a few stacks out and closed it back."imma send for my kids"he said walking out the room.
"You only have one kid nigga"I yelled after him making him stop in his tracks.
He turned around to face me"what you say?".
He started walking towards me and I started backing away.
"Say it again goddess"he said with so much hate in his eyes.
He backed me into a corner and started choking me."now I'm going to let you live because my kids in this house and my name on every last one of their birth certificates"he let my neck go pushing me to the floor.
When I heard the front door slam I ran down stairs to lock it and came back to the room to check on Jr.
"Has he no fucking sanity Jr was right here on the bed!"
I just snuggled up next to Jr and cried all night.