ℕ𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣 𝕄𝕚𝕟𝕖 [ᴋᴛʜ]

The Guilt Inside

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Soo-min trudged home through the rain, each step echoing her gloomy mood. She could see the droplets racing down her window, mirroring the tears she tried to hold back.

 Her phone buzzed with a new message from Hana.

Hana: Heyyyyyyyyy........ Taehyung and I are grabbing dinner at that new café. Wanna come? 🍽️🌟

She stared at the screen for good 5 minutes with blank face. 

Soo-min: I've got a lot of homework. 📚

She typed back, even though her books were still untouched. 

Hana: Well, can't it be done later? 🤔

Soo-min: Got a mild fever too, soooo....... 🤒

Hana: FEVER!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU OKAY? 

She laughed a bit with sad moist eyes, at her friend's care.

Soo-min: Its okay madam. No worries. Enjoy please. 😊

Hana: You sure ?????????? 🤔😟

Soo-min: Surely Sure. 👍

Hana: Fine. Bye take care. If call me if you need. 👋💕

Soo-min: Deal. 🤝

She sighed ignoring her throat lumping, didn't want to be around them, not tonight.

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As she walked into her room, she flopped onto her bed, staring at the ceiling. 

"Why do I keep feeling this way?" she whispered to herself. 

Taehyung's smile, his cute laugh, his loving eyes, his presence—it all felt so out of reach. 

Hana was everything Soo-min wasn't: outgoing, beautiful, and confident. And Taehyung, with his charm and perfection, was for her.

She drowned in sadness as she remembered how she'd told Hana she was "happy for them." 

She tried to push her feelings aside, telling herself it was for the best.

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Soo-min stood in front of the mirror, staring at her own reflection. "I need to be happy for them........she is my besties, my support after all......I can't......no, no, no........I can't betray her." she whispered, running a hand through her hair. 

Her reflection didn't answer, only stared back with the same uncertainty. 

"Is it wrong to want something so much and yet know it's never meant to be?" she asked the empty room. 

"Why?"

"Why me god?" she asked staring herself with teary eyes.

The guilt in her chest was heavy, suffocating.

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"Is it wrong to love him when he's so happy with her?"

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