Sugar & Kisses || Larry ||

Defying - 15

Mentions alcohol! 

They start singing the first song, one of their hit songs, and he can feel the music in his body, and it helps, it makes him feel better. Still absolutely terrified, but better. It gets to his part and he worries, he knows he sang it all right last time, but what if he sings it in the wrong order or something horrible? He loves this song, but it just scares him to sing when he isn't fully sure what the lyrics are. He could really use a drink.

He maneuvers over to Harry and tries to whisper to him that he wants Harry to sing the part he almost messed up last time. He just can't bear to sing wrong today, it will hurt him too much.

"Psst, can you sing my part again, please?" He whispers when Harry takes out his earpiece. Harry just nods and smiles, skipping over to the end of the stage. They don't really have a choreography when on stage, they just have to be presentable and interact with the audience, the fans.

Even though Louis was very anxious the whole concert, he actually didn't do anything wrong, he sang all the right places, the right tones. And he didn't misremember the lyrics. He did well. And now he is sober and can actually feel the pride. He can let himself feel happy about it. This is a new and exciting feeling, however, it is also tiring, cause his anxiety is still present and it makes it feel conflicting after some time. When they all gather in the green room, he starts to get anxious, knowing that he usually has a post-show drink. He can't.

In some odd way, he feels so pumped up and energetic, but at the same time feeling like he ran a marathon, he feels used up. Like he has no energy left. At least not in his brain. He knows it will create some problems if he doesn't speak up about it with Harry, but he can't let himself think too much about the bad, he needs to think positively!

On the other hand, he really could use a drink, he could just down some alcohol, any kind, just to get a slight buzz. He needs it. And with that thought he sneaks over to the table and pours himself a generous drink, of what seems like a gin and tonic premix. Or something. He doesn't care much at this point, to be honest. He just needs a buzz, and he needs Harry not to tell him no. He knows that he shouldn't break the rules, not this short into the whole thing, he just can't see another way. He needs this. And he doesn't fully care what Harry has to say about it. So what he drinks a little, it isn't gonna be like he's gonna get wasted, he knows better.

The drink doesn't take long until it's empty and Louis pours another one, just a small one, he thinks. Which evidently turns into small half-dusen drinks so far, and he knows Harry is going to notice. He is glad that the gin and tonic mixture looks like water and since he poured it in a normal cup, it doesn't look out of place, especially not after a concert. He can feel his head being a bit more cloudy and him being dizzier than usual, he welcomes the feeling of no control. He loves the way his limbs feel like they're floating. It makes him not think too much about all this stress he has.

He slowly makes his way over to where Zayn is sitting, slowly because if he went faster maybe Harry would notice the slight waver in his steps and how uncoordinated he looks. He has the control over this. He can decide how drunk to be. He thinks.

"Hey, Zayn, do you want to go out today? I know a great bar not too far away from here," Louis says, in what he hopes is a whisper, however, his voice is wavy and slurred, making Zayn know he has already had a drink.

Zayn shakes his head, not sure what to say to this half-drunk Louis. While he would love to go out with Louis and have a chill evening, he knows Louis is a reckless drunk, he does things he usually wouldn't. He gets buzzed often, but full-on drunk means bad things for Louis, and therefore also the rest of the band.

He decides to just say yes, he needs a day out too, and if Louis can keep it cool it should be fine. Louis gets pumped and almost cheers when he hears this, the alcohol already having lifted his mood. He feels like flying, this is great, and now with Zayn saying yes he can have a great evening! With no responsibilities.