Silenced

                            Kaylie's pov
                — Summer of 2016 —
2:34 A.M

As I was peacefully sleeping in my mother's bed, rolled over I woke up to my mother asking me a question.

"Kaylie, have you been cutting yourself?"

I felt my heart racing after I heard those 6 words.

"Kaylie?"

My mother said to me, waiting for a response.

"Yes, but I only did it once. I'm okay."

I said half asleep, knowing I did in fact not only do it once, and it was affecting my mental and physical health very horribly.

"What? Is it because of me?"

After my mother said that I realized what I said and I quickly sat up and got up off of the bed

"No mama, of course not!"

I said, watching my mother try to hold back tears, but after that I too, started to lie on the carpeted floor and sob. This went on for an hour.

3:24 A.M

"Okay, try to calm down. You're not going to be able to breathe."

My mother said to me as she was on her phone scrolling through the pictures she took of herself the night before.

3:57 A.M

"Try to come up here and get some rest. We're gonna talk about this in the morning."

My mother said to me

"Okay, I'm going to go use the bathroom really quickly."

I said, getting up off of the floor, wiping my tears off of my face, then grabbing my phone after that I walked into the bathroom, making sure it's locked by twisting the doorknob 4 times

After that, I texted Valerie.

"Can you call me? Something bad just happened"

I sent the text as snot was still running down my nose, my vision was blurry and my own head felt as if it was too heavy to carry.

"Yes."

Valerie replied, then calling me.

"What's wrong?"

She said

"My mom found out I relapsed when I was sleeping"

I replied.

"That's your fault you should have worn longer sleeves or something"

There was a long silence.

...

"That's what I do."

She said.