The past two days have felt like nothing but a blur. I woke up, showered, fucked Aaron all day, ate something now and then, and drank until I blacked out. It honestly felt like the times in Arizona when I was doing God knows what but it's ok now because I'm all the way grown and I'm a wife.
But still even in all of my liquor comas, I missed my baby Jabari. So this chance I had to get out of our staycation was making me as happy as it could given that I felt like throwing up with every step that I took.
I adjusted my sunglasses on my face, walking as fast as I could behind security to get to the seats Aaron had for me at his game. I was already running late as I could hear the visiting team's introductions start. I sighed and did a small skip run to catch up to the man who seemed to be sprinting to our destination in front of me.
I tried to think of the positives. I was gonna see my baby for the first time in a few days. Jabari being at Aaron's parent's house was a good break from the chaos of having a baby. But at the same time I missed the chaos of having my baby boy. And I missed home, I wanted our staycation to be over already, I wanted a real honeymoon after the season, not what was happening now.
I finally reached my seats that were a few rows back from the home bench. And luckily I got there right before the home team introductions started. I barely saw Aaron's mother in the dim lighting the arena had set for the intros. I wondered if I should take my sunglasses off to greet her but I quickly shot down that idea as I was sure that even though I haven't had a drink in about an hour, I still looked drunk as hell. I stayed on thin ice with his family and I didn't want to make it any worse that it already was.
"Bianca honey! How is my lovely daughter in law?" Aaron's mother cheerfully questioned me as she held her arms out to me, waiting for an embrace.
I just smiled brightly, as bright as I could manage, and held my arms out to meet her hug, trying not to speak too much as I'm sure that my words would be slurred and embarrassing. When she pulled me in she stopped for a moment and got stiff of me before she embraced me. What was her problem?
I cleared my throat "How're you Mrs. Gordon? Where's my baby?" I got right to the point but I asked as nice as I could.
I was given a sad smile and Mrs. Gordon pointed to her feet and I saw Jabari in his carseat carrier with little yellow sound earphones on his head and a pacifier in his mouth. He wore his father's jersey with navy blue sweatpants. The dim lights didn't allow me to see what was on his feet but given that Aaron was growing his sneaker collection everyday, I'm sure it was something fly and expensive.
"Number 50 Aaron Gordon!" I heard the announcer say.
I quickly craned my head up to the Jumbotron and saw my husband flexing on the screen. Usually, I would feel big momma purr but we've been having so much sex that I don't even want him that much anymore. I sighed and as I did, the lights came up and I was glad I kept my shades on because I got a small migraine from the sudden bright lights against the wooden court.
I sat down in my seat and reached to unbuckle Jabari. "Mommy missed her baby." I said and hoped to God I wasn't slurring too bad in front of Aaron's mother. Even though she was the most gracious of the whole family and the only one accompanying me to the game today, I didn't want to make a bad impression on her or embarrass her in front of this giant crowd.
"Oh, Bianca dear why don't you let him sleep for a little bit? He gets so cranky when he's woken up from his naps." She lightly suggested to me.
I rolled my eyes underneath my sunglasses ignoring her suggestion and continued to do what I was doing. "I'm sure he wants to see him mother. He probably missed me more than I missed him... Which was a lot."
