zoning out on the train home
I stare at the blurry road
sometimes I close my eyes
trying to brush off the thoughtsbreathing heavily
I wanna give this up, I think
it hurts to try harder every day
to leave youI read the texts all over again
reminding me how I was the happiest
but also how I cried the most
when you were aroundit doesn't matter
my thoughtsthat night I was mad
at everything that made us apart
but I shut the thoughts
and finally told you I've missed youI don't care
my thoughtsand God, I smiled when you said
that you missed me tooit's like a fresh air
to know that I'm not the only one strugglingfor a moment I thought we had hope
but we didn't.now what?
my thoughtswe talked it out again
running around the same old shit
only to come to the fact that
no matter how much we long for each other
it's not enough to make us onewe only fight
again and againyou wanted me to hate you
so that I don't ever have to come back to you.
but would you hate me?
so that you don't ever have to come back to me.no, you wouldn't.
because you won't let me go
no matter how much you need toyou thought we could do this
but we couldn't
and no one wins in this
we both lose.Thursday,
12 September 2024
22:22
YOU ARE READING
if she talks
Poetrywords she never said she wrote everywhere she could. it's not structured nor planned. just everything she has in mind but too afraid to let it all out. - written in English and Bahasa.