Orm
After that night Ling always allows me to sleep beside her peacefully and I really enjoy it knowing that she at least cares about me and the fact that I rarely have that nightmare again when I stay next to my wife couldn't make me any happier
Sadly I don't feel really connected to Ling. We sleep together but she won't touch me even if it were just a cuddle that I always want not that I am too desperate to want to be touched but who else doesn't want when it comes to the love of your life, right?
Life is like she goes to work and comes back late at night. She might eat my dinner but it's just a little since she has already eaten somewhere else. So one morning, I am bringing that topic of my working to her again maybe I can work to kill my boredom and to put my degree into works
"Ling, I want to work" I ask her since today she decides to have breakfast with me
"Why? I can support you. What else do you need? Just tell me" She answers, putting her napkin down
"I know I just don't want to stay at home it's so boring maybe I can help you at your office-"
She puts her spoon and fork down carelessly as the shattering sound of the things hitting the plate makes me flinch"U-uhh, it's okay. I am s-sorry if you don't want me to work with you" I stammer hating my voice sounded like a cat under the rain
"As I said I don't want you in my office not that I think you are not qualified I just hate the feeling of having the over-possessive wife in my work time" Her words cause me to blink many times. So all of the things I have done for her breakfast, lunch, dinner and everything I have done to take care of her means I am just the possessive bitch who wants to control her life.
She doesn't even think that I do that because I love her or even care for her
"Ling, if you don't want me to work with you please just tell me the truth don't stereotype me with other women you have met or you have fucked when your wife is staying at home waiting for you to come back like a good little girl" I shout. yeah maybe my I can't control myself anymore.
She can tell me to fuck off but she can't accuse me of what I never intend to do
Her eyes widen when my words finally seep fully into her brain she stands up instantly grabbing both of my wrists with all of her force "So you are saying that I am out all nights to fuck other women!"
"Out of all the things I have said to you this is the only thing you have caught? Or, you have done that huh?" I continue to push her when I don't know how many seconds I can hold myself back from crying like a weak woman that I am to her
"Yeah" She laughs. "l just don't know how you know it but it kind a true you know I am surprised" She releases my hands before sitting back on the chair looking like I am nothing
Suddenly, my world stops I don't know how to handle my tears anymore it falls uncontrollably while I beg inside my head that she will deny it but she doesn't
"It's so funny that I said that because I get angry with you and it turns out that it's true" This time I laugh.
"Well, thank you for letting me know" I add.
Even though it's sad that your confession hurt me
"I am sorry that I love you I am sorry that I am blind sorry for making you choose the wrong path. For everything that I have done to you thinking that you feel the same way when you are not I finally find the reason why you not only love me but more like hate me. It's because you already have a girlfriend right now why don't you fucking tell me Sirilak Kwong!" I shout at the top of my lungs I don't care anymore.
"Because I had to marry you. Isn't that obvious? You want the marriage that I have never imagined I would have I don't even know why you love me, really? We have met a few times when we were kids then you went to England. The next thing was you came back and claimed that you love me and want to marry me" She sighs heavily as if l am hard to explain
"I am not in love with you? Okay that's it. I am just stupidly having a crush on you it isn't called love when it's one-sided" I stand up before clarifying something I should have done along time ago since the time I knew she doesn't even like me.
"I know you want a divorce but we can't do it right now because if we do our parents will ask why and I don't want you to have any inconveniences so we have to live like we are not wives. After all I don't want to put any pressure on you I will sleep in the guest room started from tonight I will work for a living. You can either eat out or cook by yourself because I don't even want to force you to eat something you don't want to. Deal!"I walk out hearing her replying 'Deal!' loudly as if she were so happy to finally be freedom again.
I rush to my room to pack my clothes to move them to another room before dialling my best friend "Hello"
"Hello Orm. Honey I miss you so much. I haven't seen you since your wedding day. How have you been?"
My best friend's cheerful voice makes me smile a little bit, "I am okay Kwang I just need a job."
"Your wife is a billionaire. Why-"
She pauses a few moments before continuing "Wait, why are you sniffling? Come meet me this afternoon I know you have a lot of things to tell me"
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Be Mine - Lingorm
Fanfiction"You want a wife this much, huh? That's why you are just back from England, yet got married instantly." She sits on the sofa, her head on her hands, looking so elegant and intimidating. . . . . This is new story for Lingorm.
