Apologies and forgiveness for something unforgivable

Morning routine

Dazai froze. It was cold outside and the bandaged mackerel was shivering from coldness.

"Oi, you're freezing again, shit head?" Chuuya was truly concerned: He remembered when he needed to hug Dazai to warm him up on long term missions years ago. But he couldn't mock him for that because he himself often had nightmares and Dazai was always there for him.

"'m cold..., as usual."

"How?! We're in a fucking hotel and you're rolled up in a thick bedsheet",Chuuya wondered.

"Gnghh, don't know..."

"Pfhh... I can't believe I am doing this shit...

C'mere." Chuuya reached his hands out to Dazai and pulled him into an embrace to warm hin up. He could feel the ice cold skin in contrast to his own warm one.

Dazai was obviously very tired so he just snuggled into Chuuya's arms and mumbled:" Thanks, Buddy."

Chuuya blushed. Originally they wanted to stay away from each other as far as possible but now... He sighed and looked down at Dazai's face. He needed to admit that he wasn't called handsome for nothing and his slim and tall figure looked truly amazing. All those things he never noticed before when they were in the Mafia.

Well, the beautiful things are always seen too late.

The redhead was also getting tired but right before he entered the kingdom of dreams...

" Maybe we can be together again someday...?

*In the morning - with Shin Soukoku*

"Whaaaaaaahh !!!!" Atsushi screamed. Something was holding his mouth closed and a loud sound had woken him up.

"Calm down you stupid idiot! What do you think you're doing, screaming around like being tortured by me."

Akutagawa stood right in front of him, already dressed up in his usual, black working garment. It turned out that it was Rashomon that had hold Atsushi's mouth closed.

"Huh?! You're strangling me with your freaking ability and I am accused for being scared?!"

"I did it so nobody's would hear you. Otherwise we would have been thrown out by the hotel's owner, you dumbass",Akutagawa replied annoyed.

"What are you talking about?! If you hadn't hold my mouth closed I wouldn't have screamed like that!",Atsushi argued, still not understanding Akutagawa's intention.

"Are you deaf?! The lamp on that cupboard here fell to the ground so I shut your mouth to stop you from screaming!"

"Fine...But the next time don't startle me like that again!"

Their noisy fight had also woken up the two other men.

*in the other room*

"Uwahhh...!",Dazai yawned. Chuuya awoke to and noticed ashamed that he was still holding Dazai in his arms. He immediately pushed him back and turned to the opposite direction.

"Hey, you meanie! Don't you want to hug me?"

Chuuya thought:"Why is everything so different now? Why did he need to decide to leave...If he was in the Port Mafia today we would have worked together with Ryūnosuke and without the Agency. Everything would be like it was years ago..."

"Hey,Chibi",Dazai's call interrupted his monologue,"you wanna make breakfast or should I?"

A bright smirk appeared on his face: That mackerel exactly knew that the redhead wouldn't let him step into the kitchen one meter, because he already experienced what a chaos will occur otherwise.

"No way, and you know that, you jerk! But Ryūnosuke is also a great cook. I taught him."

"Aww, how cute. But Chibi is insulting me again! Can't you hug me like yesterday night? C'mon...",Dazai dramatically complained.

"Whaaaat!? No! What the hell?! You..., you... arghh, Just wait, I'll beat the shit out of you!"

This pair also started arguing as usual, so the day started with a wonderful fight between the black caped beast, a kitten, a god in human form and the former demon prodigy.

*Later...*

"Hey, Ryūnosuke, could you give me the salt, please?"

After a while Chuuya had decided that he would prepare a healthy breakfast and asked Akutagawa to help him, who accepted.

They were in the kitchen when Dazai entered the living room, where Atsushi was sitting nervously at the table.

"Heeey, Atsushi-kun good morning! What's the matter? Why are you making such an unlucky face?",Dazai greeted cheerfully.

"Uhhh...I don't know about you but I feel a bit uncomfortable, eating with wanted criminals...Aren't you not even a tiny bit afraid of being killed?"

"Well, I would welcome Chuuya to kill me but sadly he's always killing his victims painfully so I think I'll pass.

And as for Akutagawa...Hmmm, he could kill me fast and clean with a well placed stab but he would never do that, even if I wanted."

The last words came out of his lips but he didn't hear it himself:"Wasn't I the one who taught him to do so? So why should you expecting the opposite now, Dazai! Foolish!"

"Ehm...Dazai-san...everything alright?",Atsushi asked concerned. He rarely gets to see his mentor actually having a serious problem..

"Oh yes, Atsushi-kun! Of course!" Dazai showed his long trained fake smile.

They waited a while, when Chuuya and Ryūnosuke came in with four delicious bowls of miso soup with seaweeds.

The aromatic scent flew in to the room and even Atsushi needed to admit that this dish that his enemies prepared looked truly delicious.

He couldn't hold back and praised:

"Wow, this smells really good! Where and how did you learn this?"

"From Chuuya. Do you think that mafia members only have their job as hobby? We do other things than kill people in our freetime, you know?",Akutagawa stated sarcastically.

"N-no, it's just, you don't look like a guy who cooks for friends and family."

"Well, you're neither friend nor family so..."

"Ok, ok, got it...",Atsushi laughed. This man had somewhat a sense of humor.

Dazai took a sip from his miso soup and said:" As delicious as ever, Chibi", "And I'm impressed that Akutagawa learned that so good!"he added with a blink towards Ryūnosuke.

But Akutagawa misunderstood. "So does he mean I learned from him too slow and bad? But he's actually right with that. I'm weak...",he thought by himself.

After they finished the surprisingly long breakfast the four got to work again. And this day would cause more trouble than they initially hoped...