DHRUVTARA

GUILT & FAILURE

--I shall be cremated and only the ashes shall remain , yet in these glistening eyes their will be hope , the hope to have you--

TARA

A shooting headache made me wince in pain , the pressure made it hard for me to open my eyes. The last thing i remember is Dhruv's face , it was dim and dull. Tears were flowing out of his eyes that were scanning my face blankly. 

" Ahhhh" I got up with a jerk holding my head that was terribly paining. I opened my eyes sluggishly to realize I was in Dhruv's room. 

" What the hell...How did I come here?" I murmured my eyes were narrowed due to the extreme pain.

I tried getting off bed but I failed. Tears gathered in my eyes , I am no more angry ..I have lost my sense of what's right and what's wrong. Myra's words echoed in my ear.

You made a mistake Tara You always do.

 You are so foolish that you believe people easily that day you believed me and fought with Dhruv and now - now you left him.

You don't deserve him Tara...YOU DON'T DESERVE HIM.

" No shutup...shutup No- No" I closed my ears with the pillow vigorously , I am losing my senses again. Goosebumps ran all over my body and my heartbeats picked up pace.

The door flung open and Dhruv entered. He worriedly rushed towards me.

" Tara-Tara " He held my shoulders lightly. 

" Don't touch me" I shouted throwing his hands away with a jerk.

" Tell me why the hell am I in this room?"  He didn't react and moved towards the table to pour some water in a glass. 

" Dhruv Answer me Now" I yelled gritting my teeth. He stepped near me and passed me the glass. What does he think he will continue with his facade and i will tolerate it. No way.

I threw the glass on the floor breaking it into pieces, he didn't flinch a bit. He was constantly staring at me. 

He thinks that he can keep me here without my will. No you can't Dhruv. I got up and started rushing out , he grabbed my wrist and threw me on the bed. 

" What the hell.. How dare you?" My hands voluntarily searched for my gun but i couldn't find it, obviously Dhruv isn't dumb to keep my gun with me after knowing my intentions.

I want to kill him brutally.

He was slowly coming close to me his eyes never leaving mine. I gulped. What is he thinking?.

"Dhruv" I kept sliding back until my back collided with the headboard. He hovered over me, my heart started pounding. We were looking into each others eyes for a moment his eyes shifted to my lips and then back to my eyes.

"Run little Rose ,If you can" He winked. 

" I know your intentions Dhruv" I murmured softly.

" Enlighten me" My eyes flickered and sweat beads started forming on my head, it isn't that hot and also the temperature is low. What the heck?

He brushed my lips with his thumb, my eyes got a mind of their own and they shut themselves. I could no more control my actions , they were in his control. As they always were. How stupid I am to think I can live without his touch. He slowly shifted to caress my cheeks . His warm fingers moved on my cheeks like feathers. His touch melted me and a lone tear fell from my eyes over my cheeks , he moved closer and kissed the tear drop. I wanted to leave every thought, every restrain aside and hug him tightly, I want to tell him that I am not fine which I know he already knows. And when the possibility of that seemed impossible I burst into cries.