DHRUVTARA

MADNESS

-- Good boys go to heaven and bad boys bring heaven to you--

TARA

Nostalgia hit me looking at the Jal Mahal from Dhruv's Room. He confessed his love for me there in midst of the lake and Our first kiss...

It feels like ages have passed since we last kissed. Not a lot of time has passed but everything changed. The place that i considered mine feels like a jail. I couldn't sleep at night Dhruv kept visiting me each hour.. Huh to make sure I didn't run away.

Or maybe if I was okay?

Shutup. He is a selfish person, he only thinks about himself.. he always did. 

Lies. Lies. Lies. How many lies will you tell yourself?

Honestly I want to go with my heart , I want someone to come and tell me that Dhruv hasn't killed my dad. I want someone to tell me that it was all a lie. I want someone....Dhruv to come and hug me tightly and tell me that he hasn't murdered my dad.

Trust me this time I will believe him. Even if he has... Tears left my eyes as I gave in.

Door opened with a creak , I wiped my tears in a haste and turned around. It was Maa .His mom.

" Keep it there and leave " She brought food for me. It's been so long hearing her sweet voice. She is my second mother, she loves me and also cares for me unlike my own mom. I couldn't hold back my tears in front of her.

She rushed towards me " Bacche, calm down don't cry.. I am here look I have brought food for you ..see you like Rajasthani cuisine right , I have made every single thing by my own hand for my betu ". She made me sit on the couch and started serving food. I kept looking at her.. There's no way she can let Dhruv kill my dad. 

I hugged her and burst out into cries , she rubbed my back gently calming me down. I needed someone.. someone who would understand me and who could be better than her. She held onto me for several minutes before parting from the hug.

"Maa" I spoke sobbing.

" Bacche I know what's going on in your head " she cupped my cheeks wiping my tears.

" Maa everyone is saying that I am wrong...How could I be wrong ? My dad is dead and I am sorry Maa but it was your Dhruv, I didn't ever expect this from him...I-I trusted him with my whole heart ..I-I loved him maa I loved him. Was that my fault? People keep saying I slept with the killer of my Dad...But that time he wasn't a killer all I know that I slept with my Dhruv who agreed to marry me in a heartbeat.. He told me he can't live without me , but just when my dad agreed.. he killed him. He ruined everything Maa. But you know.. I -I try to hate him but I fail miserably each time. The moment he is near me my mind forgets what's right what's wrong . I want to forget everything that happened and hug him....I love him Maa.. I love him Whatever I had on my side wasn't a facade . I am literally dying each and every second without him.. I am loosing my mind, I can no more control myself ..and you know- you - know- I picked up a gun...and also I turned your Dhruv into a beast. I have messed everything up yesterday I tried to kill Myra ..I am not like this Maa- I can't recognize myself anymore... Relations are nothing for me I have become cold and Ruthless...But also I am don't feel good seeing Dhruv cry when I hurt him and I did.. My heart ached physically. I felt like killing myself .. At this point I wish I die."