DHRUVTARA

LET GO

-- Sometimes letting go is better than holding on--

TARA

People say life is a full circle. My life is just that right now. The way I was caged at my Palace , here I am caged again. Look at you Tara , What have you made of your life?

 I have been staying here since last one week. I didn't step out of Dhruv's room. I eat and then go back into my slumber sluggishly , how I would have loved this thing when I was in school.. but right now it feels like I am living the worst life .

Dhruv keeps visiting me again every fucking hour and it's not because I will run away. * breaks into tears* It's because he wants to make sure I am safe. We don't talk anymore ..but trust me i can see in his eyes he wants to say so many things to me yet his mouth stays sealed. * chuckles* as if I talk to him. 

Trust me it's not the ego...it's just that I can't talk to him without breaking down. The moment he comes near me I melt like a candle , words take a back seat and tears play on the front foot. He hates my tears , the only thing that he hates about me is my tears and I can't stop them , the moment my eyes meet his they start tearing up.

Also I am numb.. numb after witnessing the darkness in Dhruv's eyes that day. I am not scared, he means no harm to me but others are going to witness his wrath. The worst kind of Anger that no one has seen before. Maa keeps telling me that he has started killing people ruthlessly. Whoever deceives him receives death in return. Recently he chopped his manager's fingers mercilessly. Khwab was telling me that the entire Dungeon was echoing his screams. It was horrific.

Oh god.....How badly I want this to be a nightmare. 

My chain of thoughts broke as Dhruv entered the room. I stared at him blankly sitting on the bed. He looked down for a moment and then he said something that broke me into thousand pieces.

" I am ending this " My mouth parted hearing it.

"Huh"

" You are leaving right now for your home" . But why?

" You don't want to-"

" You are going back , I won't interfere in your life from now on neither in Business...nor in relationships." 

My breaths fastened.

 What are you saying Dhruv? You literally killed someone to get me and now you are telling me to leave..leave you.

Tears burst out and a knot started forming in my chest. It was fear, fear of losing him. Fear of him losing feelings for me. I stood up from the bed and looked at him briefly, my already pale face was now wet with tears, he kept looking at me with no emotions in his eyes. Has he really lost feelings for me? 

Confront. Yes Maa told me to confront him.

I moved towards him and he moved back. He didn't let me touch him, and it broke me to the core. I gasped , my eyelids dropped down and tears fell continuously but this time he didn't kiss them or wipe them ...he just stood there like a fucking statue.

I should have killed myself that day. At least I wouldn't have to witness this.

I mustered up some courage and finally asked him " Did you ever love me?". A hurt Tara spoke within me.

" Tara It's enough now, come into senses your dad won't come back and you-you look at me as his killer.. Tell me Tara how can you keep any kind of relationship with your Dad's killer? " He said coldly.