Last First Kiss

Chapter 60

Melina's P.O.V.

It was dead silent as Harry and I exited the small clinic. My mind seemed to have blocked out all the sounds of my surroundings and all I seemed to take notice of was Harry's arm around my shoulders, leading me to his car. That and the eery feeling of emptiness in my belly.

As we reached the car, Harry gently pushed my shoulders down so I would get inside while mumbling something in my ear that my mind completely blocked out. Without a second thought, I stepped into the vehicle, staring straight ahead of me as the feeling of emptiness only grew stronger each second that passed by. My hands absentmindedly travelled down to my abdomen, closely followed by my gaze. It was hard to believe that up until a few minutes ago there was a baby growing in there; not just any baby, my baby. And then, just like that it was gone. As if it had never happened.

My head shot up as Harry shut his door loudly and suddenly, all sounds penetrated my ears again, taking me aback. I gave a disturbed look towards the hood as Harry turned on the engine, somehow blaming it for interrupting my grieving time. Finding myself too distracted by all the noises going on around me, I diverted my gaze to the window, watching how we passed by trees and buildings

"Are you alright?" Harry asked softly after a while, my head turning so I could look at him

"Oh yeah, I'm jolly" I replied, slightly angered by the question "I'm just marvellous, I only just killed my child"

"I thought you wanted to" he muttered lowly, his eyebrows knotting together in confusion

"I didn't want to!" I exclaimed "Sure, I chose to do it, but only because I wanted the child to have the life it deserved and I can't offer that!"

I crossed my arms, furiously looking out the window with a big scowl on my face. I felt Harry look at me a couple of times and though it was obvious he was feeling guilty, I caught a smirk making its way onto his lips as he noticed me jutting out my bottom lip as I always absentmindedly do when I'm angry. I shook my head and turned it further to the right, so I wouldn't have to see Harry's face, even though I could only see him from the corner of my eye. As we drove around a bit longer, I couldn't help but let the tears slip from my eyes

"Just because it was my choice, doesn't make it any easier" I choked out "It was still my child. And it was yours too, Harry. I don't understand how you cannot be phased by it"

"Babe, I-" Harry struggled with his words and before I knew it, he had pulled over and was forcing me to look at him

"Babe, I'm sorry. I just- I can't be phased by it. It was growing inside you, not me. It- Your belly wasn't even bigger yet. In a way, it wasn't real for me yet. I- I didn't experience it. I just knew it was there" he wiped the tears from my cheeks, pecking my lips sweetly, simply waving off the fact I didn't kiss him back "I'm really sorry"

Without saying another word, I leaned forward, burying my face in Harry's chest while tightly wrapping my arms around his waist. His wrapped around my shoulders and he took it upon himself to repeatedly press kisses to my hair, rubbing soothing patterns on my shoulder blades

"It's okay, babe" Harry shushed me "You made the right decision"

"That doesn't make it hurt any less" I whimpered

"I know, love" he murmured, pulling me even closer against him. We sat pressed against each other for a while when I heard a sniffle coming from Harry, causing me to pull back

"Are you crying?" I asked, my voice cracking from the crying I had been doing

"I just hate seeing you sad" he replied, wiping his tears away with his large hands as I intently looked at him and before I knew it, a giggle left my mouth, followed by full blown laughter in which Harry joined me