*1 YEAR LATER*
NOVEMBER 6, WEDNESDAY.
8:09PM.
📍: CHERRY GARDEN, RESTAURANT, KINGSTON.
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KAVIA DEI'DREAM BLAKE | 20.
"Happy birthday my baby" I glanced up to see my mom walking up to me planting a kiss on my cheek once she was close enough.
I plastered a fake smile on my face, my dad walking up to me also with my little sister in his hands.
Daijah.
She's so little.
"Happy birthday mi first baby" I laughed softly at his words.
"Thanks dad" My eye moved to my baby sister who was stareing at me.
"Say happy birthday to Sissy" Daddy said to her in a small voice.
She grinned turning away from me then turned back her actions causing a laugh to leave my lips.
"Okay, in a few years you'll be able to say it" I laughed turning my attention to the cake before me.
20th birthday.
I'm 20.
It doesn't feel like much, just an regular day.
A bittersweet smile appeared on my lips my mind wondering back to a year ago.
My babies would've been 2 and 1.
I felt a bile rise in my throat and before I could process anything tears formed in my eyes at the thought.
Over the past year me losing them has been hitting me hard, extremely hard too and I have no idea why.
I mean, I shouldn't care right? Atleast that's what everybody would say.
It was my fault so I shouldn't care.
I didn't even meet them so why does it hurt so bad?
Me seeing and hearing them doesn't make things any better, it only hurts more.
But I'm okay.
I felt warm liquid run down my cheek my trembling fingers going up to wipe them away before anyone noticed.
Today is my birthday, I shouldn't be crying but it's become a norm for me to cry on my birthday.
I turn a year older while they are forever stuck as few weeks old.
