TESEHKI
"I'm about to get going. But can I holla at you real quick?"
Siya questioned me the next morning as I just had finished cooking myself breakfast. I looked up at her in pure confusion. What could she possibly want after she done pissed me off last night?
"What do you need, Siya?"
"I just want to apologize for last night. I didn't mean to talk shit about your best friend like that."
"You're good, Siya. I'm over it. Can I just eat my breakfast in peace?"
"There's a reason why I did it, though. Over the last few months, I've been catching feelings for you. I got jealous because I didn't know if you and Ace were a —"
"I don't mean to cut you off, Siya. But I don't have time for this shit. I'm not trying to dismiss your feelings, but I told you, I'm not into girls like that. You bitches need to start finding actual lesbians, and stop trying to deal with me."
I rolled my eyes. I know I been lying straight through my teeth, but I'm trying to keep the act up as long as possible. Siya sadly shook her head, looking down at her feet.
"Riiight..."
"You really not gonna believe this shit! I can't believe this fucking scum bag!"
Rollie came running through my front door, slamming it behind her. I could tell she had been crying because her eyes were puffy.
What the fuck happened now?
"What the hell happened? Are you okay?"
"Ace is such a scum bag! I went over to her house this morning, and she had a whole other bitch or however much other bitches up in her bed! But she couldn't fuck me! What kind of shit is that?!"
My heart shattered in billions of pieces. But at the same time, I was angry. And at the same time, I knew I couldn't really be mad because I'm the one who's holding us back from ever being anything.
"Wow... are you kidding me?"
"I wish I was!"
"I'm just gonna go. I'll catch yah later."
Siya shook her head as she walked out of my front door. I looked at Rollie and slowly nodded my head.
"I'll go out and talk to her. I'll be back."
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Fifteen minutes later, I pulled up to a certain area where I knew Ace was during the day. And of course, she was there. Dealing her shit like she always does.
"What chu doing here, Sehki? You know you ain't supposed to be around while I'm out here working."
"Who the fuck were you sleeping around with last night? But you couldn't come over and watch movies with us?"
"Rollie opened her mouth, huh?"
"Who the fuck else would've told me? Who were the bitches, Ace? I'm not playing with your ass."
"But you ARE playing with me, though..."
"What's that supposed to mean? Are we really about to have this conversation again?"
"I don't know what else you want from me, Tesehki. You ain't taking me seriously, it's been over a fucking decade. I'm really getting sick of your shit. You expect me not to feel some type of way when you constantly fucking me, but you don't wanna be my girl. And on top of that, you still won't leave the nigga that you don't even love. If this is just about sex to you, just let me know so I can know how to move. You're damaging me."
Was Ace serious? She knows how we are, and where we stand. How dare she try to switch it up and try to make me look like the bad guy!
"You know how it is for me, Ace! I'm scared!"
"Scared of what?! If you so scared of being an open lesbian, just let me be! Let me move on and find a bitch who's really finna be down for me!"
"I'm scared of losing you, you fucking asshole! What if we take this relationship shit serious, and it doesn't work out?! I lose my lover, and my best friend! I don't want that!"
"You ain't even giving me a damn chance to prove that it will work out. How you finna know if we don't give it a try?"
"How do you know it will work out?"
"Aight... you know what? Just go, Tesehki. I'm busy right now. You can't be here."
"You not even gonna let me finish talking to you?"
"I have nothing to say to you right now. You gotta go."
Ace looked up at me with a cold look in her eyes. My heart shattered even more. She can't do this to me. Not after everything we've been through together.
"Ace... please..."
"Bye, Tesehki."
"You know that I fucking love you, Ace. Don't be like this."
"Your words show different than your actions. I need actions, I don't need words anymore. Words don't mean shit to me anymore."
"Ace —"
"Go, Tesehki. Now."
All of a sudden, I feel like my entire world came crashing down. My worst fear probably just came true.
I really hope that I didn't lose my everything for good...
