A heart that's broken

The date

Jungkook really didn't feel like going on this date but he felt obligated.
With flowers in his hand he stood at Mayas door pressing the bell.
The door opened and Maya stood there smiling.
"Hello Jungkook are these for me? Thank you,come in while I put them in water. She took the flowers and kissed his cheek,one thing he'd liked about her was that she was no shrinking violet she wanted something she went for it. He'd shared a few chaste kisses and knew that if they hadn't been in company it would have progressed.
"So are we going out....?or do you want to stay in?" She said her eyes running over him.
Jungkook knew what she was offering and he couldn't understand why this suddenly felt wrong.
"Shame to waste a good restaurant...shall we go?"
She raised an eyebrow then nodded getting her coat and accompanying him to his car.
Seeing the restaurant he'd picked she was happy,even happier when a flash went off and their picture was taken,a little publicity wouldn't do her any harm she thought smugly.
"Sorry about that," Jungkook said," photographers are everywhere."
"Oh it's fine...just a photo," she murmured knowing full well she could be headlines tomorrow .
They were shown to a table and chose their food and drink.
"This is a good choice," Maya said waving her hand to the surroundings.
"Someone suggested I take you to a smaller place,"
"Someone?"
"Jimin hyung...he thought it would be easier to talk ,"
"Jimin huh?.......You know I thought for a while you two were a couple as you were always hanging out together.....then I realised he's just....well clingy....its not like you reciprocate.....doesn't it annoy you?"
Jungkook didn't like how she spoke about Jimin.
"He's not clingy we just get on well he always looked out for me from the start,it was quite hard in the early years but Jimin was a good friend to us all."
"Oh well you're a big boy now you don't need him....its ok to have a private life....." she smiled gently touching his hand.
Instead of feeling relaxed with her Jungkook felt like he wanted to end the night.
As the evening wore on he felt more uncomfortable . She liked to talk about herself and how she wanted to get higher in the industry,hinting that maybe they could go out together to a celebrity party.
He just smiled and made small talk wishing the night would end,her perfume was a little strong not natural,he liked softer tones like Whatever Jimin wore it smelt nice.
She excused herself to the ladies room ,but not before commenting," you choose where we have dessert here or............" she left the sentence open giving him a knowing look as she disappeared.
"Fuck no! " he got his phone quickly messaging Tae,
'CALL MY PHONE IN TEN MINUTES OLD PROTOCOL!!!"
He knew Tae would realise he needed a get out,it's what they used to do when younger and got in trouble one would call the other if they were called into the office and that person would apologise but say they had to call home immediately.
Maya walked back and Jungkook called the waiter over for the bill.
While he disappeared his phone rang right on queue.
"Hello?why what's up? No,of course I can come,I'm near there now don't worry we will get it sorted."
He hung up then turned to Maya.
"I'm so sorry but a friend is in need....i have to go but I'll call a taxi for you first."
"Oh dear,should I go with you?"
"Er no,he won't be happy if I bring someone he doesn't know..."
"Oh ok....what a shame our night ended like this."
Jungkook gave a fake smile and called a taxi which came in minutes. He waved goodbye then got into his car.,sighing in relief.
He called Tae.
"Hey what's up why the emergency call?"
"Date gone wrong..."
"How can a date go wrong?"
"Let's just say the vibe was all wrong,more my status than me she was interested in ...it just felt wrong."
"I'll find a girl for you...!"
"No thanks I'll find my own"
"Huh...Jimin believes in me...asked me to find him a date,we are even going clothes shopping for a sexier version of our Jimin."
"What?!"
"He called he's rung all of us,to apologise then said he needs to get a social life do I know any gay guys.... Then he was saying I've got good taste can I help him restyle himself ...it's gonna be fun."
"There's nothing wrong with the stuff Jimin wears though?"
"Maybe he just wants to explore options,anyway I gotta go he insists on an early start tomorrow ."
"Why didn't he ask for my help?"
"Well I did ask he just said you wouldn't be as available as you have been?"
"Damn this is getting stupid...."
"Is everything ok between you two?"
"What...er yer,just a minor hiccup nothing I can't sort out."
"Good,well I gotta go Jimin and shopping...it's gonna get messy on the wallet!"
The call ended and Jungkook decided to text Jimin.
"Hey.....I'm sorry about earlier not being sensitive to your situation....I've really always just seen you as Jimin your sexuality never occurred to me I see you as my friend,I'm sure we can sort this dilemma out I don't want to lose you."
He waited and waited then 'ping'
"Why are you texting me on your date?"
"Not great date ...got shot off earlier,"
Silence then.
"Plenty more fish in the sea."
"I suppose.......Tae said you asked him to get you a boyfriend?"
"And?"
"Isn't that a bit........rushed,"
"No....I'm gonna stop being juvenile ,we are not an item ....I realise that now...so I'm gonna let go."
Jimins words echoed in Jungkooks head the sound bitter and loud.
"I'm sorry Jimin...I didn't mean to hurt you but please don't just rush into something..."
"Rush?ten years of fantasising over something that wasn't real...I think I need to get my act together and make up for lost time,goodnight koo......Jungkook."
The messages stopped but Jungkook felt uneasy.
He drove home and made himself a glass of whisky sitting on his sofa he drank it all the while wondering what Jimin would do.
After a while he rubbed his eyes tiredly then sighing went off to bed falling asleep immediately.
"Ah Kookie make me yours....so good harder...oh god I'm co....."
Jungkook woke up in a sweat,what the hell?he looked down to see the tented cover,fuck had he just dreamt of having sex with Jimin!!
It had seemed so real Jimin under him moaning in pleasure his lips swollen,fuck,stop it.....but his mind had other thoughts and soon he was moaning in pleasure as he pumped himself while imagining thrusting into Jimin ...
"Aaaaaaargh!" He released powerfully panting in pleasure.
He grabbed some tissues to wipe up the mess.
How can I think like that...he's just a friend...and did gay men have sex like that?
He decided to go on his laptop who cared if it was three in the morning.
Typing in what he was looking for he spent the next hour reading up on gay sex,pleasure points and the basics of lovemaking .
Clearing his history he lay back down tired and confused but strangely turned on thinking that Jimin would have sex like that,then annoyed that he would go looking for someone else to have that pleasure with.
"He's not thinking straight...he can't just do it like that!"
Eventually he fell asleep again,determined to talk the other out of his bad decision.