Disventure Camp Madness 4 (YEAH, WE GOT MORE)

🩹💢🔥Akito Angst HCs 🩹💢🔥

(Warning: Mentions of depression, self harm, bullying, etc.)

(Reader descrietion is advised.)

-Akito had depression when he was 16, thanks to his past.

-Akito felt guilty for causing the biker stunt incident back in high school before, because the stunt got everyone including his friends in trouble with the school staff. It didn't help that his friends also got injured as well thanks to the stunts' failure.

-He felt guilty for not only getting his friends hurt, but also for getting them into trouble and decided to take the fall for the stunt so they'll receive a lighter sentence. (They all got punished by the principal for that stunt, but he was the one who got the heaviest since he took the fall.)

-Not only did he receive a heavy punishment for the stunt accident, but he also got scolded by Karmen's dad for putting his daughter in danger. He even said that he is to never get near her again.

-He wished he could go back in time to see Karmen's dad again, so he could say goodbye to to him and tell him he's sorry for what he did to his daughter back in the stunt accident, and also thank him for calling him out. (He considered Karmen's dad to be his dad figure than his actual dad.)

-He used to be harrased by many of his classmates for his love for poetry and music, which is why he hid it in secret since he felt ashamed of it.

-He used to be in a poetry club back in high school, but the reason he left the club was because he didn't feel safe or welcomed there.

-He was constantly harassed by the clubmates there, both emotionally, verbally and physically as they would always harass him for his tastes, rip out his poems, socially isolate him from their club sessions, etc.

-The harassment that he got from the club was so bad to the point that he decided to quit the poetry club after that. What made him finally quit the club was when he overheard his clubmates badmouthing him and he decided to leave the club after that.

-The reason he left the music club wasn't actually because he was harassed, but because of his depression as he began to feel more insecure regarding his talents and passion to the point that he decided to leave the club after that. (He did part on good terms with the club though.)

-He began to gain self-loathing and suicidal thoughts over himself and began to feel even more insecure thanks to his past, and began to wonder if he truly deserved to be harassed and bullied for his passion.

-He began to gain suicidal thoughts when he turned 18, as they begin to occur when he was in college.

-He started to self harm by burning his skin with cigarettes or with lighters and would cut himself in a few ocassions with his trademark pocket knife. (Sometimes, He would even try to cut his legs.)

-He mostly covered up his cigarette burns and his self harming scars with his jacket, pants and bandages so no one would notice.

-Sometimes, He would even draw pictures of him being dead or killed by people along with writing degrading notes to himself, he even had a page where he lists off the many times he cut himself and reasons why he should punish himself.

-When he was hanging out with Ella and Landon one day on a date, he encountered his ex-parents who proceeded to insult him again, scolding him for his behaviour towards them and Atsuhiko and blaming him for ruining their lives, including them saying that he gaslit his brother with his depression, forcing him to take care of him and even saying that he tried to commit suicide. Akito responded by punching them in the face and telling them off before leaving. However, despite him telling them off (Along with Landon and Ella.) He began to wonder if they were truly right about what they said about him, including on how he treated Atsuhiko. (Reina and Daisuke revealed Atsuhiko's suicide attempt onto Akito to spite him so they could make Atsuhiko reconsider his decision and abandon Akito.)

-He still felt guilty on how he treated Atsuhiko back then and felt like an asshole. He even wished he could go back in time and punch his old self in the face for the words and actions he treated him.

-Akito never told anyone about his depression or his suicide attempts, not even Davis, Karmen, Hannah, Blake, Atsuhiko or even Ella and Landon since he knew that they'd be better off without him and that he didn't want to make their problems even worse like last time. (He also believed that Atsuhiko didn't deserve to die because he knows that he has some people who will miss him, But Akito believes that no one will do the same for him anyway.)

-After a while, Akito managed to have the courage to finally confess about his self-harming problem including his two lovers and brother and needless to say... They were all heartbroken over this and gave Akito their love and support and assured him that they would never leave him ever. (Including Davis who took it the most hardly and cried onto Akito for almost two hours straight.)

-Akito still wishes he could see Karmen's dad again so he can thank him for being a great dad figure and apologize for the stunt incident back in high school.

(Serious reminder: If you or someone you know is suffering from depression, please tell a grown-up or loved one and call suicidal hotline. Do not make a mistake that you will regret later on.)

(Thank you)

(Don't worry guys, Akito already went through therapy and is doing fine.)