Dear diary

chapter 8 - Music insider

Anna's POV

It has now been a month since the accident. Maria and Andrew have told me Shawn was there with me the whole time, never leaving my side. I find it weird being, I have not seen him since. I tried texting him telling him how grateful I have been for him saving my life and staying with me, even though we barely know each other.

I have started working again and I have been going out a little with my friends. However, I will say, I have not touched alcohol or any kind of drinks I did not open or pour myself. I have been getting paranoid, and I honestly am really scared this will happen again.

Today I am sleeping in, because tonight we are going to a release party for Shawn's new album. It is a private event with a small guest list, photos are not allowed inside, which I believe makes the event more fun. I love taking photos and capturing memories, but when you have your phone out all the time you forget to live in the moment. The only photos that are allowed is the ones Josiah will be taking.

Shawn's POV

I am so excited for tonight, we are having a release party for my new album. This party is a week before my album comes out, but I wanted to release it for my friends and family and see their reaction. The day my album actually is released Andrew planned for me to perform it for my fans.

I am honestly nervous as well, I have not seen Anna since she woke up at the hospital. I just cannot look at her without getting emotional. After she woke up I went home to shower and I slept for a whole day. When I woke up I went to Brian's house to talk to him, it was a very emotional and harsh conversation. We almost ended out in a fight, I was just so mad he did nothing in the situation and just wanted to throw himself at her almost lifeless body.

I remember yelling at Brian that I would never be seen with Rick and Tony again. In addition, I asked him to reevaluate his friendship with them, because why would you drug someone just for fun.

I get to the venue early just to get a good look at it. I promised my mother I would meet her and my dad before the event so we could get there together. I hear my phone ring "Hello?" I answer, "hello my favorite son" it is my mother, I laugh. "What's up mom, I will probably be there in 30 minutes" I tell her "great that was what I wanted to call you about".

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As we arrive at the venue I start to get really nervous, I mean I don't know why I am just so excited to share my new album. We are the last to arrive, typically all my friends to be on time the one time I am five minutes late.

We walk into the venue and everyone starts cheering and clapping. I look around and I spot my team, some of my old friends and family, but the one person I was hoping to see that apparently I could not find. "Man I am so excited for this", Brian comes up to me and I nod, even though we made up, I just cannot get over what happened. "Did you see Anna?" he asks and I shake my head "she looks so good today" he continues, I sigh "dude you've got to stay away from her" I say and walk away. "Welcome everyone, I hope you are as excited to hear Shawn perform his new album as I am" my dad says standing on stage with my band behind him, I did not expect him to say anything. "Andrew allowed me introduce Shawn today, I just wanted to tell you all how proud I am of my son, and how far he has come on this musical journey," he says tearing up. "Let's get him up here," he says and everyone starts clapping again.

Halfway through my performance I spot her in the crowd. We lock eyes for a while and smile. And just like that she is gone again.

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"Hi" I say as I walk over to Anna, I spotted her at the bar. "Please can I just have a bottled water with the lid on?" She asks the bartender and turn towards me, "hi" she smiles. "How are you, you know after everything?" I ask her, "Well I think I am getting better" she smiles, "you know... Maria and Andrew told me you were there until I woke up... but I just" she pauses "well I just don't understand... why would you just leave and not come back" she asks and looks at me. "I am so sorry about that," I say I do not know what else I can say in this moment, and she catches onto that.