,, he kisses men your honor ,, { rodger x glisten }

19.

⚠️ MENTIONS OF SH ⚠️

[RODGER]

"I love you so much Glisten and it would mean the entire world to me if we could have a small kid of our own. And now after Dandy told us we could, what's stopping us?" I hyped him up, his face turning more and more Uncomfortable by the thought.
"I-I don't know if I wanna put my body through that, Rodger.. I obviously love you too, I love you alot actually, but I just.. I don't want..to." He fidgeted with his fingers.
"Oh.." I looked dissapointed and just switched my gaze to the floor.
"I'm Sorry." He got up and left.

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"Was it something I said? I mean we have been dating for like a month now and I just really wanna make him mine! Am I really that horrible that he doesn't want me like that?" I was sobbing, holding a tissue on my face.
"Rodger. It's Glistens body so it's his choice. If he says he doesn't wanna put his body though 9 months of absolute torture, then he won't. You just have to learn to accept that." Shelly comforted me as I cried on my bed.
"Yeah I do accept it! I just don't understand! Am I really that ugly?" I cried harder, Shelly giving me a glare.
"Did you not just hear what I told you? It's Glistens body so it's his choice. NOT yours." She glared at me harder.
"I'm such a horrible boyfriend!!" I sobbed harder.
"RODGER!!" she slapped me.
"OW!! WHAT?"
"ITS GLISTENS BODY!! STOP WHINING AND GET YOURSELF TOGETHER!!" she slapped me again, this time it being 3 slaps.
"OW OKAY OKAY!!" I held my cheek and glared at her, she clearly proud on what she did.
"Stop forcing him to have kids with you. That's some serious next level abuse right there." She crossed her hands and got up, leaving me alone on the bench.

"Theres no way she just said I would abuse Glisten.." I sat there for a while, thinking about her and my words.
It is indeed Glistens body. Fuck I'm such an idiot!! I took out my Phone and texted Glisten.

"Hey I am so sorry for the talk! Shelly slapped some sense into me and I wanna apologise for being such an asshole.. You do not have to do what I want to, and if having kids isn't for you then It's not for you!"

He left me on read.

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I haven't heard anything from Glisten for 3 days. Some toons say he hasn't came out of his room during those days at all. And once someone tries to enter Glisten pushes them away. So now I am standing infront of his door, thinking if I should try knocking..
"Go ahead. Go fix your mistakes." Vee pushed me closer to the door. Shelly had obviously told her about our conversation and now Vee refused to let it go. I just nodded and knocked onto the door.
"Go away!!" Glisten yelled. I could sense from his voice that he had been crying.
"It's me." I called out, following a long quiet pause.
"Come in.." He said. I looked at Vee and she nodded, so I opened the door and went in.

His room was a mess.
There were used tissues all over the room, some I could make out that had blood in them. Glisten was laying in his bed, underneath 3 blankets.
I closed the door after myself and sat down next to him.
"Don't touch me." He said, flinching when I reached to hold his hand. I took my hand back and looked at him.
"What have you done to yourself?" I asked.
"I'd rather not talk about it.." He said, snuggling closer to his bed.
My eyes trailed around the room more, till my eyes glued onto his nightstand. There were two used blades with the edges covered in blood. I looked at Glisten.
"Glisten.. Have you been cvtting yourself?"
Glisten flinched and started crying harder.
I pulled him into a hug and he began crying harder. I held his head against my chest and hugged him tighter.
"I didn't know what to do Rodger! The nighmares came back worse than ever and they feel to real.." He cried.

I held out his hand that was filled with deep and bloody, infected cvts. My face horrified I took a clean tissue, rubbing alcohol and gently started tapping the wounds. Glisten flinched and cried harder.
"I know baby.. It hurts but these are infected. We have to get them cleaned." I kept tapping and gently rubbing the dirt off the wounds, Glisten crying from the pain.
"I-It hurts!!" He whined. I kissed his forehead and put the tissue down, hopping to the medical cabinet each room had and taking a roll of gauze, walking back to Glisten and wrapping his wounds in it gently, making sure Glisten felt comfortable.
I repeated the process to the other hand and a few cvts Glisten had on his thighs before getting up and cleaning around, tidying Glistens room since he couldn't do it himself.
"Thank you.. For everything." He said, cuddling deeper into the bed. He felt physically more comfortable now that I cleaned his wounds and the bed had fresh clean bedsheets.
"Its alright luv. I just wished you wouldve came to me earlier." I said, throwing all the used medical equipment to the trash.

"I know. I'm Sorry." He said, hugging a huge blåhaj I got for him as a Birthday gift a month ago.
I smiled and placed a gentle kiss onto his forehead before heading to the door.
"Wait! Before you go.." He said, making me turn to look at him.
"I would love to have a Child with you.. But I'm not mentally or physically Ready for it yet." He said. I smiled and nodded.
"Thats alright love. I love you just the same regardless." I blew him a kiss and left the room, closing the door after myself.