Nirvana one-shots

The call 2

Once I said that, shock pulsed throughout me, and I couldn’t help but feel embarrassed. It’s normal for me and Kurt to say that we love each other. But from my tone, it was clear that I didn’t mean I loved Kurt in a romantic way.
Me and Kurt do stuff that most normal friends don’t do, but I just summed it up to Kurt being a more cuddly guy. Not him loving me back. Me confessing my love to him was going to ruin everything. 
Tears slightly leaked from my eyes, and I was tempted to turn around and start running away. That wouldn’t help anything. Even if I wanted to do that, I couldn’t due to the fact that I was frozen in fear. I was motionless as I sat next to Kurt, who lay in the hospital bed, our eyes locking. I cried more.
“Why are you crying, Dave?” Kurt asked. “You know that I love you too.” 
“N-Not like I love you…”  
My words only got me into a deeper pit. I could have gotten myself out of this situation if I wasn’t stupid and used my brain. But now Kurt knows that I have a crush on him. 
“Let me guess, you want to be with me?” 
I let out a low whine. I was so embarrassed that I just wanted to disappear. I didn’t want to be having this conversation right now. I didn’t want to be sitting in front of Kurt—the man I love so very much—knowing that he is going to reject me, and our friendship will get forever ruined. 
“Come on, Dave. Be a good boy and tell me.” 
Usually, Kurt’s praise would make me happy. But right now, it just makes me feel worse. He would never praise me again once he knew the truth. He wouldn’t want to be my friend once he knew the truth.
“I do want to be with you.” I admitted hesitatingly. “I really love you.” 
There was an awkward silence. A silence that went on in Dave’s mind for hours, even though it was only a few seconds at most.
“I knew it.” 
“Y-You knew it?” I demanded. “What do you mean by that?” 
“It’s kind of hard for me not to know that you love me when you shove your tongue down my throat on stage.” Kurt laughed.
“W-Well, I kissed Krist on stage too.” I pointed out. 
“Not in the same ways.” Kurt then added. “The way you look and act around me. The way you constantly want me touching you and how you react when I praise you. It’s so obvious that you have a crush on me.”
“Do you hate me?” 
"Dave, why would I hate you?” Kurt asked. “I love you.” 
“Love as in?” 
My heart was pounding so hard that I thought it was going to pop out of my chest. There were two ways this conversation could go. Kurt could reject me, or he could reveal that he is in love with me too.
Kurt stared at me, not responding. I wanted to beg him to answer, but I knew that I couldn’t rush him. That would only make things worse.
“I love you, as in, I want to be with you.” Kurt finally said. “I have for a while. I just didn’t say anything because of all the drama with Courtney and my stress dealing with my drug use.” 
I was so happy that I couldn’t help but lunge out of my seat and hug Kurt. I then realized that what I did was pretty embarrassing, so I sat back down.
“Sorry…” 
“Don’t be sorry.” Kurt replied. “It’s alright.” 
I didn’t know what to say. All I wanted to do was jump into Kurt’s arms and tell him I love him over and over again. But I know that he’s too sore for that. 
“So, what are we?” Was what I finally decided to say.
We both admitted our love, but that doesn’t mean that Kurt wants to date me. Although I know that if Kurt loves me and doesn’t want to be with me, it’s going to hurt a lot.
“What do you want to be?” 
I held back a groan. All I wanted to hear was Kurt asking me to be my boyfriend. I wanted him to tell me how much he loves me.
“I want to be with you.” 
“Do you want to be my boyfriend, Dave?” 
“Yes!” 
I blurted that out instantly, like an excited kid that was just asked if he wanted ice cream. I felt a little embarrassed, but my happiness overwhelmed that. 
“Then you can be my boyfriend. And I’ll be yours.” Kurt told him. “I wish that we could have been together a little earlier. But I’m sure that we can make up for lost time. Right?” 
“R-Right…” 
I wondered if this was really happening. If Kurt really wanted to date me. I secretly pinched myself, but I remained awake. This is real. A thought then occurred to me. 
“W-What about Courtney?” I couldn’t help but. “You and she are still married.” 
“Well, we are married.” Kurt admitted. “But we are in the process of a divorce, and she’s cheating on me. She has been for a while.” 
“And the media?” 
Kurt snorted. “Do you think I care at all about what the media thinks about us? They already think we have been messing around. They already think I’m gay. For the record, I’m bisexual. Although it’s not like any of those news reporters care. They just want to get views and money.” 
“So, we can be open about our relationship?” 
“Wait until I’m fully divorced from Courtney.” Kurt ordered. “But once I’m divorced, we can be public about our relationship. I’m not ashamed of you, Dave. I love you, and I want the whole world to know that.” 
Hearing Kurt tell me that made my heart flutter. I felt joy pulse throughout my entire body, and I couldn’t help but wrap my arms tightly around Kurt and kiss him on the lips. Kurt kissed me back. Even though I was scared about what the media was going to think about me and Kurt being together. But I don’t care. As long as I can be with the one I love and make sure he stops doing heroin, I’ll be happy. 
Now that Kurt is officially my boyfriend, I’m going to do everything in my power to make sure that he gets sober, happy, and most of all, remains safe.