Nirvana one-shots

lost

After Kurt Cobain’s death, Krist and Dave were lost. They didn’t know what to do. They were hopeless, almost as if they didn’t believe it.

“H-He’s not really dead, right?” Dave asked. “I got called before about his death, and he ended up surviving. This must be happening again.” 

“He’s dead, Dave.” Krist forced out. It looked like he was going to start sobbing. He used all of his strength to control his emotions. “I saw the photos. He shot himself. He’s gone. Forever now.” 

“N-No….” 

So many emotions were pulsing throughout Dave that he didn’t know what to do. He just stood there, his legs wobbling as tears slowly started to drip down his cheek. 

“W-Where are the pictures?” 

Maybe the wounds weren’t as bad as Krist thought, and he could have been saved.

“You are not seeing his death photos.” Krist said firmly. “That would only hurt you worse. It was a horrid sight that even I wished I didn’t see. His brains were everywhere. There was nothing that anybody could have done.” 

Dave desperately didn’t want to start crying, but, in the end, he just couldn’t control himself. He let out a choking cry before he started to sob. Tears rapidly rushed down his face, and Dave began to cry so hard that he couldn’t breathe.

Krist’s response was to scoop Dave up in his arms and wrap his arms tightly around him. Dave nuzzled into Krist’s chest and cried into it as Krist whispered sweet nothings in his ear and rubbed his back.

“It’s okay… Everything will be okay. It seems tough right now, but I promise that we can get through this…” 

There was just so much Dave wanted to say but he couldn’t force the words out. His mind was a mess, and it didn’t help that his body was working in the way that it should. Once he was able to speak, he confessed his darkest secret. 

“I-I love him…” Dave confessed. “I didn’t just love him as a friend. I genuinely loved him. I wanted to be with him. I wanted to date him. Even if he didn’t want to date me, I just wanted him to be happy.” 

“I know. I loved him too.” Krist admitted. “The worst thing was that he knew. He had some feelings for me and you. He admitted that to me while high before. But he couldn’t get with either of us because of his internalized homophobia and Courtney. God, I hate Courtney… She killed him. She may not have actually orchestrated his death like everybody thinks, but her abuse was what finally set him over the edge.” 

Dave listened to every word that Krist said. He was shocked, but he believed him. He also hates Courtney. As Dave stared up into Krist’s eyes, he started to speak again.

“I love you too.” 

As soon as those words left Dave’s mouth, he started to cry some more. He was so stupid. Why did he just tell Krist that he loved him? He is such an idiot! 

“I-I’m sorry!” Dave muttered.

“Shh…” Krist urged. “Don’t cry, baby. Don’t cry. You are okay. I love you too. I do.” 

Dave stopped crying and stared at Krist. Krist wiped away Dave’s tears. 

“You really do love me and want to be with me?” Dave questioned.

Krist nodded. “I loved both you and Kurt for a long time. I would do anything to be with you. It’s just a shame that Kurt can’t be with us too.” 

“Is it really okay if we be together without Kurt?” Dave asked. “Will this relationship even last? We might just be getting together because of his death. I feel like I do love you, but…” He trailed off, not knowing what else to say. “What will the media think?” 

“I don’t know if our relationship will last.” Krist admitted. “But I love you, and you love me, so there isn’t any reason why we shouldn’t be together. Kurt would want this. I know it. I don’t care what the media thinks; they can go jump off a cliff. I want to be with you, Dave.” 

“Then be with me…” 

Krist grabbed Dave and leaned down to kiss him. Dave kissed him back and wrapped his arms tightly around Krist. The loss of Kurt Cobain is going to be hard for the two band members, but they know that they can get through it if they have each other.