Rivalry of the Century ~ Ayrton Senna Love Story

Can We Go Back?

Night of Carnival...

Isabelle's POV

We never spoke about what happened a few days ago, we just continued forward. I didn't like it. For the first time, I didn't want us to keep going like this yet at the same time I wanted us to stay in our little world forever; without the rest of the world watching. Unfortunately for me, that wasn't about to happen... because we were going to Carnival at Viv's insistence.

"Do we really have to go? Can't we just stay here, I've got a few ideas about what we can do instead..." I say, moving to start kissing up his chest and lightly biting his collarbone which rewards me with light moans.

"Hmmm darling I'd love to do more, but we promised Vivianne we'd go with her. Plus you've never been before, we can always have sex later." He replied pushing my head away reluctantly.

"Ughhh come on, I've got nothing to wear anyway. Plus there will be cameras then and we both know how that will go." I rolled away and covered myself with a blanket while Ayrton got up to get dressed, facing his back to me he replied.

"We can just pretend to be friends, it's not like we'd be lying." For some reason, my heart stung from those words.

I got up slowly after him to get dressed for Carnival, trying to not show my sadness from his words. I only had a few hours to get ready before we had to leave since Ayrton and I ended up back in bed after lunch. My mind was off in long trails of thought as I did my hair and makeup the best I could, I had no idea what to expect for Carnival let alone what I should even wear. All I kept thinking about was our relationship, or situation, or whatever we were. We were so messy, so complicated, and no matter how much we tried to forget each other we were always brought back together, but it was never in a healthy way. Yet I wanted him, I wanted him more than anything else in the world. It was so bad that I would even say I needed him more than I needed the air to breathe.

I knew what I had to do, I just needed the strength to do it.

Vivianne's POV

I walk up to my brothers room and knock on the door with one hand, the other was holding the outfit I had for Isa. 

"Come in" I hear her call from the other side of the door.

Walking in I see her with some of her clothes set out, her hair and makeup already done, but there was something wrong I just couldn't place it.

"Trying to find something to wear?" I say jokingly, but it only gains a dry chuckle from her.

"Yeah something like that..." she still has her back to me and I try to shake off the uneasiness that I feel.

"Well let your worries cease because I bring gifts! Here, this is the perfect outfit for you for Carnival. It's simple and I know that you'll love it." 

I walk over to her and lay the outfit out in front of her and when she turns to me I finally see it, the sadness in her eyes. It's the eyes of someone who has given up, someone that has left everything they love behind. It didn't take me long to realize what she was planning to do, she turned her head to the side at my realization and a tear fell down her face.

"I have to Viv, please don't tell Ayrton, I want it to come from me." 

"You're not planning on telling him are you?" I said more as a statement because I already knew the answer.

"Will you give him this? When the time is right, please Viv."

I sigh and grab the envelope from her hand, my brothers name in perfect cursive on the front. We just look at each other not saying anything at all, I knew there was nothing I could say to stop her and there was nothing she could say to make me understand. But I knew, at least I knew part of it because I lived under Ayrton's shadow ever since he started racing.