Y/n Lestrange

10- HATE

I grab his hand. "Apparate!" We land. I face the same stone cave. I walk up to the entrance and Matteo follows me. "We still don't know a spell and it's been 3 weeks." Matteo says as he catches up to me.

"I've nearly figured it out, it'll be fine." "You don't know him like I do." My mother stands at the door waiting for me. She smiles and pulls me into a hug. "Hows school been?" It's odd for her to ask me normal questions. "Yeh fine." "And how's the spell?" She says, there we go not normal questions.

I sit down next to her in our regular seats. Someone new catches my eye. Draco sits down with his mother and father. Draco? Voldermort arrives with his snake following behind. He talks about his new ideas for his plan. I drift of again in my own world.

"Y/n are you listening?" Voldermort shouts. My mother pushes me and I follow her gaze to Voldermort looking down at me. "I said have you figured a spell yet, it's been 3 weeks now?" I slowly shake my head, "no sorry master, I've been trying hard but I can't figure anything, we can't figure anything." I haven't actually spoken to Matteo and we haven't worked together as a team on this so I wouldn't know what he's been doing. "3 weeks! In 3 weeks from now I would like to be in that school and have Harry Potter and Albus Dumbledore dead!" He shouts at me and I jump, I start to sweat and feel sick.

"I'm sorry, I really have tried!" I say loudly to him. Maybe I shouldn't have raised my voice to him. I catch Matteo looking at me worried. "We've tried together father and nothing seems to work. Y/n is very determined and stays up late each night to figure it out." Matteo speaks up to his father. All eyes now focus on Matteo. "Next week I need that spell!" Voldermort slams both his hands on the table and looks at everyone. "Meeting dismissed!"

I get up quickly and follow after Matteo. My mother try's calling out for me but I ignore her. I can't stand her right now. Why would she put me through this?

"Come on I wont to get out of here." I grab Matteos hand and he casts the spell. We arrive back at Hogwarts. His hand still in mine. "Thank you for standing up for me." I say quietly, trying not to cry.

"I'm sorry, I should be helping you. Instead I've been an asshole and I'm so sorry." He pulls me into a hug and holds me as I cry. "I'm so scared. What if we never find a spell that works." He rubs my back slowly and says, "we will find a spell, we will." "Still I'm so scared." I cry some more and he holds me.

I stand back and wipe my tears. "God I'm sorry about that." I point at his shirt with a wet mark from my tears. He laughs, "don't worry about it."

"Matteo a few weeks in the library.." "That's my fault I don't know what I was thinking I shouldn't have done that, I don't see you in that way." My stomach drops a little. So it meant nothing to you. "Yeah it means nothing to me to." He nods his head. "Oh and last night about Theo, please don't ever mention it and just forget about it." My face goes a little red remembering last night. "What you do is none of my business, but I did talk to him about it and the way he handled it was wrong of him." "Oh thanks." I hear a few kids come through the doors and I move away from him. "I better get going." "Sunday night library, we need to work as a team again, you and me." He says and watches me as I head off to find Pansy.

***

"I missed you today. Where do you go anyways?" Pansy watches me fix my hair and makeup. "Library, I enjoy reading there by myself in the mornings." I lie again to her. I can't keep up with these lies anymore. "I still can't get over yesterday, it feel like I was stuck in a nightmare but it's real." He lays on her bed face down in her pillow. "I know you don't want to but maybe it's best you speak to him. He can tell his side of the story and so you guys can end it hopefully peacefully." I suddenly remember Draco sitting down with his parents, and sad look across his face. I do wonder why he was there?

"Fine I'll go speak to him. But I need to look hot so I'll make him jealous and show what he's missing out on!" She gets up off her bed and goes through her cupboard. "Okay and while you do that, I'll speak to Theo." I stare at myself in the mirror for a second ad then head of to his room.

I knock and he opens. A sorry expression crosses his face. I come in and sit on his bed and he does to. "I'm so sorry Y/n I really don't know what I was thinking, I was being a dick head and for some reason thought you wouldn't care if they found out. But you did and I'm sorry." I puts his hand on mine. "Like I really am sorry." "Thank you for saying sorry and I forgive you. And I do think this needs to stop." He nods his head in agreement and we both sit there quietly.

"Matteo actually confronted me about it after you left. Which I'm so shocked about since he hates you." Theo grabs out a smoke and lights it. "He hates me?" "Seriously you don't know? He never speaks to you and always avoids you Y/n." I watch him. My stomach drops and my heart hurts. "I don't know if I should tell you but a few weeks ago he was telling me how much he can't stand you and all this. And I was shocked when he was telling me off for what I did." "As he should of, your a dick." I stand up and walk towards the door. "Fuck I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that!" I slam the door in is face.

This fucken man! Does my heading I really don't understand him. Does he like me or not. He does my heading and I can't stand him and his mixed signals. Talking shit about me behind my back?

I storm off to my room and slam the door. Pansy's already gone so I'm all alone. I shower and go to bed. I miss dinner and fall asleep. I slept for a few hours and awoke when Pansy came back. I stayed quite to pretend I was asleep and drifted back asleep once she got to bed.

Tomorrow I'm gonna confess to him in the library when it's just me and him. Tell him how I feel and how much I hate him. He hates me. And I hate him.