Journey to realisation of love

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Mahindra POV,

I woke up and saw a not so familiar room, I looked around and saw Ziva sitting beside me smiling sheepishly at me. " Good morning dadda" she said and hugged me and I hugged her back, "good morning beta " picking her in my arms I went outside the room and smelled the aroma of food, it was pesto sauce pasta's smell which Sakshi makes. I went inside the kitchen and saw her making the coffee which I like. She turned around and saw me and smiled softly, uff her smile makes my heart swell in happiness.

Ziva jumped down and ran towards her mumma, "see dadda is wakey wakey mumma" "yeah I see he is awake, freshenup Mahindra then we will have breakfast, Sunny will be back too from the Restaurant" aish she didn't have to take that bastard's name. I nodded and came back after taking a quick shower and saw my wife and daughter laughing with that Sunny guy ugh I hate him so much. "SM you are sho cool" "that toh I am" he said kissing Ziva's cheeks. he saw me and said, "Good morning bro", "morning" .

And then last night came flashing down in my memory how I ended up saying everything to Sakshi about my not so good past and trauma, then I cried hard in her arms and then I maybe passed out after venting out my emotions after so long. How did we came back, how did she manage, "Sunny helped me bringing you home last night" she said as if she read my mind, "oh" was all I could say. We had our breakfast and Sunny went downstairs in the Restaurant with Ziva to give me and Sakshi some privacy to talk.

I dont know what to say except for only one thing but that is too selfish of me but I am built like this and some things cant change. "umm Sakshi I ..." "dont say anything Mahindra just let me speak first" she said and I nodded. " I try to hate you but I can't I am desperate for love Karthik and now that I know you love me I can't even think about hating you. I know maybe I sound pathetic but this is me I am like this"

I was 16 when my mom , dad died in accident that was the day I was most miserable. I was only 16 and had no money, no family I was sent to the orphanage, the owners were too kind to send us to schools and colleges and when i turned 23 when I met papa ji and dadaji as both are chief guest in a function at orphanage he liked me in an instance and asked me for marriage"

"at first I denied as you were too good for me, from such a big status and royal family, I felt how can you marry a orphan like me but later your dadiji too asked me the same and the owners of orphan were good family friends of yours they were very happy so I eventually agreed. At first I didn't like you a bit but slowly slowly I started falling for you, even if you were rude to me, you still cared for me secretly. I noticed everything you secretly do for me like bringing home chocolates and ice creams during my periods in name of whole families treat, standing up for me against mummy ji when I am not around I know it all Mahindra, that made me fall for you even more. I was happy that night when we did it for first time I was drunk but I felt those feelings, I was happy to become a mother" She kept saying as I heard her silently with all those things flashing in my mind.

"But Mahindra I am a human I have my limits and it broke few months ago and what ever happened almost a month ago after your accident was too much so I thought its better to leave you so that atleast you could live in peace, but see you are here telling me I am your peace and that you also love me, so you wanted to tell me about your past and you did, Mahindra I am proud of you that you have become so strong even after all that happen" She held my hand and came closer. I cant leave the ones I love .

"Karthik, I love you so much, so so much that I can never hate you but I also cant stay with vou" she said and my heart dropped. "Sakshi....you..please forgive me....and just..one chance Sakshi" I started pleading and she shushed me, "listen to me first, i said I cant stay with you not at the moment, I want some space Mahindra and you need yours too, to become much better and strong mentally and I need space to re think about everything, are you understanding what I am saying" she said and I nodded.