Just a Ship - Solby

Lies and Loss

I'm backkkk, well kinda. My fingers are numb and my doctor said that I could use them (kind of) but that they would hurt. But I can't feel them so there isn't pain- so technically, I'm fine... (when I feel them again I know for sure they will be 10x worse, but writing makes me feel mentally better <3) 

Today is the day! TODAY IS THE DAY! HELL WEEEKKKKK AHHHH

Half way through this I felt my fingers again and felt like dying so I changed to doing speech-to-text sorry if it's bad.

TW : panic attacks (sort of),manipulation

Enjoyyyyyyy

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The group made it back to their hotel in one piece(the one piece?!) But they were still really shaken up. They had filmed in the middle of nowhere so they drove through the empty town for a while before finally reaching their hotel. Sam and Colby said good bye to the girls and whet up to their room. 

Sam sat down on the bed and just tried to clam down. They had decided to actually tell XPLRCLUB about their 'inner demons'. (Guys I'm poor, I don't have xplrclub) and Sam had just made something up. He had obviously not told anyone what he really wrote. That would just out him.

So there he was collapsed on the bed, Colby sat on his own bed, reviewing some of the footage. Sam felt so numb and freaked out. I mean everything that had happened was kind of insane. Colby finally put the camera down and looked at Sam, who was adjusting into a comfortable position. Colby smiled at him, reaching for his phone.

Gabi 🫶❤️ : 'Hey I know you're filming in New York with Sam right now, but wanted to let you know I'm back in LA. Hope to see you when you're back. I'll be crashing at a friend's house, cause I haven't seen him in awhile. But see you when you get back. Love you!'

Something about the text rubbed him the wrong way, I mean, 'him', sure he was fine with Gabi having male friends, it just made him a bit uncomfortable.

(Once again to preface, in this book, Gabi is a bitch, not a good person and a bad GF. But Malia is amazing person, and they are adorable together fr fr, so while I don't know their relationship personally. From what I see, they are really happy and I'm proud of Colby           -extra note, Malia is pretty af, I see why Colby likes her-) 

Colby decided it was nothing, so he just liked the message and set his phone down on the bed-side table in between his and Sam's bed. Sam and him talked a bit. They were talking about the video, Niki being such a big target, everything going on. Before they knew it wit, they both were asleep.

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"Sammmmmmm, hurry uppp!" Colby complained, his hands full with luggage as Sam hastily got out of the car and rushed to unlock the front door. They had finally made it home from filming. 

They set all their stuff down, and collapsed on the couch. Colby had texted Gabi that he was home and that she should come over. So she did. Sam had decided to give them some privacy. They had been dating for a few months so Sam didn't want to intrude on anything. Even if he didn't even want them together.

When Gabi arrived Sam went upstairs to his room, leaving the two of them on the couch. They were just talking, kissing when Colby noticed something. 

"Gabi, what's on your neck?" Colby asked, looking at a very obvious bruise right below his girlfriend's jaw. She immediately reached up and grasped her neck. He face going pale white.

"Nothing-"

"Is that... is that a hickey?" he spoke, trying not to rise his voice, but clearly distraught.

"No! Colby it's not. I swear! I love you. You know that. I promise!" Gabi pled, grabbing Colby's hand.

"Gabi. Be honest. Please." Colby said sternly, tears attacking the corners of his eyes. 

"Fine, it's a hickey- BUT PLEASE LISTEN TO ME!" Gabi cried.

"30 seconds, then I kick you out."

"My friend! He forced himself on me! I swear! I reported him to the police for attempted SA! 'nd I won't see him again! But I promise you! I didn't want to! I swear! I love you!" Gabi clung to Colby, he was extremely stiff and unwelcoming, until finally he gave in. 

"Okay. I believe you. You should have called me though. I'm sorry you went through that. If you need me too I'll beat that bitch up." Colby cuddled into Gabi, holding her closely. They stayed like that for a while. And while Colby tried to believe her, he couldn't shake the uncomfortable feeling in his gut, that she was lying to him.

They stayed there for a while. Just cuddling. Before Colby heard Sam walking down the stairs.

"Do you two have clothes on?" He asked walking into the room with his eyes covered. Colby laughed and told him they were decent. "Hey, Colbs, got an email about doing a stream with someone." 

Colby could tell there was some bitterness in Sam's voice. He spoke with a soft hatred that Colby hadn't heard in a long time.

"Yeah?" Colby questioned, pushing Gabi off of him quietly, going to converse with Sam.

After a while, Colby came back into the living room, seeing Gabi grabbing her things to leave.

"I'm headed out, got a call from work, they need me in early today, got the afternoon shift." She mumbled, kissing Colby on the cheek before leaving.

Colby just stood there, wondering why Gabi had just lied. 

She had that day off. He knew her schedule by heart. And she always had weekends off. He tried not to question it, but he kept thinking the worst. He knew something was up with her, maybe it was the hickey, or her location never leaving LA, or her lie. But something clicked in Colby's head that Gabi wasn't really there anymore. 

At least not how she had been in the start of their relationship. She was floating away from Colby. And she was making Colby feel alone. She was leaving him. Slowly.

He didn't know how she hadn't realized it before. She kept forcing herself away from him, she was being more toxic than he'd noticed. 

And while he knew this pressure was toxic, and suffocating, he couldn't bear the thought to losing her. I mean, his first girlfriend after forever. He light. The person he truly loved. Forget Sam. He needed her.

So her clung to her.

Ignoring Sam, ignoring his own best friend, ignoring his love for that boy. Clinging on to the girl who was already slipping away. The girl who was already leaving.

Clinging on to the girl...

Who was already gone.

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(1120 words)

I know short, it wasn't that great. But I wanted to post something before hell week.

I'm sooo EXCITEDDDD AHHHH!

Anyways, check out my one-shot book. Idk, have a good day take care of youself!

-your favorite writer, but probably not, witty writer <3