«What's Wrong With Me?»

CHAPTER SEVEN

"What?" Johnnie asked, a smile crept on his face. Jake nodded, "Yeah, they said they're gonna give me a test so they can figure out fully what is wrong."

Johnnie nodded, knowing about the tests that Jake is talking about. "That's awesome! I'm happy that you're getting the help you need, Jake."

"Me too, it just feels like I'm finally being understood. Like everything is being set in place and I can figure out what is wrong with me." Jake sits on Johnnie's bed.

Johnnie shuts his computer off and walked over to Jake and sat on the bed with him. "well, I wouldn't think it as something wrong with you."

Jake shrugged, "But I've always felt like that–" Johnnie placed a hand on Jake's mouth to shut him up.

"Get that 'wrong' feeling out of that mouth of yours, you're gonna get tested. It's probably a relief to hear that?" Johnnie smiled and moved his tatted hand Away.

"Oh for sure yeah," Jake replied as he looked at Johnnie. His eyes softening as he felt.his heart fluttered. "But I'm feeling something else too.. but I just don't know what that is either,"

Johnnie returned the look in his eyes. "Oh yeah? Well whatever these feelings are, we'll figure them out together okay? I'm here for you, Jake."

Jake felt his stomach twist with butterflies as he nodded his head. "Thank you Johnnie. But yeah they said they'll give me a call when it's time for me to get tested. I'm so thrilled but nervous at the same time. I have been looking for this like – reason – or the answer on what is wrong with me for like so many years, Like – literally my whole life. Like – 25 fucking years. You know how long I've been waiting for an answer?! Like, – that's such a long time. That's literally YEARS Johnnie. My entire existence. And now I'm finally figuring it out."

Johnnie nodded with a smile across his face. "Yeah I get it. It probably feels like a relief to figure this all out. I'm happy that I'm by your side for this journey too. It is tough
You know? Especially when it comes to mental stuff. Fuck, I still struggle with my mental illnesses but I'm still fighting. It's both a positive and negative thing."

Jake nodded as he laid back in Johnnie's bed. "Yeah dude. I'm just so exhausted today. I spoke for so long. I literally said everything. I mean.... Everything." He yawned. "Do you mind if I crash in here? I'm so tired and I don't want to leave to my room, hahaha" he laughed as he yawned again.

Johnnie shakes his head. "No, I don't mind." He smiled. His cheeks tinted a bit rosy as he silently admired Jake. "I understand how tired you are. We didn't go to bed until like 4:30 or some shit. So yeah go ahead. I'll wear my headphones and play games at computer."

" 'Kay' sounds good, thank you Johnnie." Jake said as he kicks his shoes off and crawled into the emo's blankets.

Johnnie sits at his computer again and placed his headphones on over his ears. "Yeah no problem."

Jake immediately fell asleep within a few minutes of just laying there since he was so exhausted. But he felt relieved that he is finally getting the answers he needed desperately.

Johnnie looked over and with a lovable smile he whispered,

"Night Jake"